Struggling for purchase, a foothold

In the midst of this darkened room, remembering today the struggles, the highlights.
This morning when I awoke I did not want to go anywhere I did not want to do anything. All I truly wanted to do was have a pity party, poor me. Yet maybe God wanted me somewhere else than my plans.
So instead of going the soccer game that I really wanted to go to I sought to stay home. Then I either called my sister or she called me, and she invited me to church. God must have wanted me there because in less than an hour she and I were on our way. It was wonderful to worship God, to seek Him. Then we heard testimonies from those in Minnesota Teen Challenge, how God can set the sinner free. Afterwards we had lunch but the real struggle came when I got home.
My mind was flooded with different portions or written porn I had read in the past. I fought it. Then the other temptations came demanding me to give in. Thanks be to God He provided a way out.
Then tonight He met me. Songs flooded, scripture came to mind, and I am so thankful that sin did not devour me and its all due to God.
"You are are all in all. Jesus, Lamb of God worthy is Your Name..."