Sin and repentance

God illuminates the darkness both outside and within. Psalm 51 really makes one see the sin within. God please create in me a clean heart and renew a right spirit within me.
I am on the bus and God is confronting me over my sin.

Calibre

I have seen something change in me.

Time has passed and people have grown and changed and I have seen God work in their lives. I had believed that I am not changing that I am not growing yet while I was not looking something has been going on within me. Instead of being halfhearted with my efforts to seek holiness it has been good.

Christ is my all-sufficient God, who treats me not like man does.

Hidden

I hide a lot of aspect of my personality. To a select few I let them see a little more. God sees all. Today I left home early, at home they see my annoying side, the nurturing side. They are great I just can't stand the drone of the TV. I hate Spanish soap operas. I hate westerns. For me its a snare and I don't want to watch something that God hates. Something that glorifies sin is not something a child of God should watch right? Anyway as I have escaped to a quiet place I want to remain to sleep and rest. I like company but of a particular sort where we could be quiet but it's okay. Where there are times of joking and its okay. Where we can be serious and we spur one another to good works. I just hate the din and the noise. There is a sense where I want the Christian life to reflect more of the first believers. I read the book These are the generations and I was astounded by the faith of these believers. I want to have faith like that.

Faithful

1 John 1:9 NASB
If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

So much time has past and I am sure the last time I wrote an entry I was in Thailand. Four weeks during which their have been highs and lows. Sin at the door and me in my futility and pride letting it run roughshod o'er me. Anyway I have been thinking and thinking. About the lives of Christians around the world and how strong they are in their faith because where they live all they have is Christ and their faith is all the more beautiful because of that. Yet God is faithful. In this country with all its trappings their are people who did to this world and live for Christ. I love that.
God help me, please help me that I may run this race well.