When darkness falls

The day breaks, sunlight streams in illuminating me, my curly fro, round face, hollows under my eyes but glad it's morning
The day wears on and the bright blue of day gives way to the indigo of night
I am looking
" Until the cool of the day when the shadows flee away, Turn, my beloved"
I will be here not to be found in rags of my doing but clothed in the robes of your righteousness.
For now though the night sky is said to veil you
I find during this time crickets chirping about, the streetlight casting some light upon me I meditate on your goodness, your faithfulness, who you are, what you have done.
I find you in the midst of moonlight and stars
Within this temple of clay
Flesh and bone you knitted
The Spirit soars within remembering your word.
I remember and bless Your Name

In Psalms

Psalm 63:6 NASB
When I remember You on my bed, I meditate on You in the night watches,

Psalm 19:2 NASB
Day to day pours forth speech, And night to night reveals knowledge.

Psalm 42:8 NASB
The LORD will command His lovingkindness in the daytime; And His song will be with me in the night, A prayer to the God of my life.

Psalm 77:6 NASB
I will remember my song in the night; I will meditate with my heart, And my spirit ponders:

Psalm 119:55 NASB
O LORD, I remember Your name in the night, And keep Your law.

Thoughts about today

What woke me up out of a sound sleep this evening was the boom of the TV.

Today was such a blessing this morning I woke up got ready and was able to meet a dear sister in North Saint Paul passing by on the way by where my sister lives in Saint Paul. Love you Engadi. My heart was set to meet with the Lord today. I was honored to worship in a smaller church in Stillwater. Me and this sister worshipped together, talked, ate, walked, prayed. It was a blessing to spend time with her and I was able to be myself kooky and weird as I am. Thank You God for granting me her in my life.
Maybe coffee drinkers will get this analogy, its like a coffee addict drinking a sip of hot bitter brew after a long dry spell.
This prayer is born out of that fellowship.
God search my heart, reveal any sin within me. Please grant me humility to confess sin. Show me more of Yourself. I am here before You, You see my struggles, You know my thoughts. Please satisfy Your people with Good. You say from the least to the greatest shall know You. Please grant me more of those times with other believers. God my life is in Your hands. Amen.

The deceitfulness of sin

"Do you love me?" Jesus says those words to Simon after being denied being known by him three times. Yet the bible is clear about what we as believers are supposed to do if we love God.
2 John 1:6 NASB
And this is love, that we walk according to His commandments. This is the commandment, just as you have heard from the beginning, that you should walk in it.
John 14:15 NASB
"If you love Me, you will keep My commandments.

Our conscience bears witness as to whether we are in sin or not, and if our conscience is seared or hardened, we are in a trouble. Our hardened hearts will seek life in sin and our condemnation is worse.
Unfortunately in modern "christianity" it is a no go zone. I put it that way because if it is not the Christian walk according to the bible then can one really say they are following Christ?
There are some misconceptions when it comes to sin, and I want to confront it with the truth of the bible.

1) It does not hurt anyone.

Romans 6:23 NASB
For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

2) No one has any right to confront me.

Matthew 18:15-17 NASB
"If your brother sins, go and show him his fault in private; if he listens to you, you have won your brother. But if he does not listen to you, take one or two more with you, so that by THE MOUTH OF TWO OR THREE WITNESSES EVERY FACT MAY BE CONFIRMED. If he refuses to listen to them, tell it to the church; and if he refuses to listen even to the church, let him be to you as a Gentile and a tax collector.
1 John 5:16-17 NASB
If anyone sees his brother committing a sin not leading to death, he shall ask and God will for him give life to those who commit sin not leading to death. There is a sin leading to death; I do not say that he should make request for this. All unrighteousness is sin, and there is a sin not leading to death.
Proverbs 27:5-6 NASB
Better is open rebuke Than love that is concealed. Faithful are the wounds of a friend, But deceitful are the kisses of an enemy.

3) As long as I don't hear that it's wrong as long as I don't read it in the bible I am good.

Romans 2:14-16 NASB
For when Gentiles who do not have the Law do instinctively the things of the Law, these, not having the Law, are a law to themselves, in that they show the work of the Law written in their hearts, their conscience bearing witness and their thoughts alternately accusing or else defending them, on the day when, according to my gospel, God will judge the secrets of men through Christ Jesus.

As Christians we have to wage battle against sin. We have to grown in holiness. Day by day I want to be conformed to the image of Christ.

A woman of prayer

I have found that on my days when I am overwhelmed by the felt presence of God I write. I was going to write on my prayer life when I opened John Bunyan's book on prayer I saw a message I wrote to myself which says "lay hold of the throne of grace". I find myself sometimes struck at how God works through me.... I am inadequate, small yet God sees fit to look upon me.
The reason I was looking into John Bunyan's book was because where he writes the meaning of prayer when I read it when I first got it struck me.
" Prayer is a sincere, sensible, affectionate pouring out of the heart or soul to God, through Christ, in the strength and assistance of the Holy Spirit, for such things as God has promised, or according to his Word, for the good of the church, with submission in faith to the will of God."
When I pray with people God gives me scripture that at needed to be heard. In private its usually me taking a walk and talking to God. I have no closet (I wish sometimes I did). Sometimes God feels so close I feel that if I reach out my hand as I walk He will take mine in His.
I love prayer because God hears as it says in the Psalms
Psalm 34:4-7 NASB
I sought the LORD, and He answered me, And delivered me from all my fears.
They looked to Him and were radiant, And their faces will never be ashamed.
This poor man cried, and the LORD heard him And saved him out of all his troubles.
The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear Him, And rescues them.

I know that the way I walk with the Lord is not the standard. Frankly my friends God bless them are such an encouragement to me. They seek to walk in His Ways whatever role God has given them. It's amazing to see how God has grown them. God in his mercy even despite my time in sin has grown me too.

I used to meet up with a group on Fridays, it was a prayer group. We with one heart sought Him, wanted more of Him, wanted revival to come to come to our church.
He met us, He met us. It wasn't really planned it was just prayer and worship, and the scriptures used to exhort one another.

Frankly my simple prayer right now is that God's will be done, and that He no matter what the circumstance will meet me to provide instruction, reproof, and His shelter. I want to abide in Him and He in me, whatever in life happens. God take this life, its not mine but yours to do with as you will.

Now in reading reading this portion from Psalm 18, hopefully it will encourage more prayer.
Psalm 18:6-19 NASB
In my distress I called upon the LORD,
And cried to my God for help;
He heard my voice out of His temple,
And my cry for help before Him came into His ears.
Then the earth shook and quaked;
And the foundations of the mountains were trembling
And were shaken, because He was angry.
Smoke went up out of His nostrils,
And fire from His mouth devoured;
Coals were kindled by it.
He bowed the heavens also, and came down
With thick darkness under His feet.
He rode upon a cherub and flew;
And He sped upon the wings of the wind.
He made darkness His hiding place,
His canopy around Him,
Darkness of waters, thick clouds of the skies.
From the brightness before Him passed His thick clouds,
Hailstones and coals of fire.
The LORD also thundered in the heavens,
And the Most High uttered His voice,
Hailstones and coals of fire.
He sent out His arrows, and scattered them,
And lightning flashes in abundance, and routed them.
Then the channels of water appeared,
And the foundations of the world were laid bare
At Your rebuke, O LORD,
At the blast of the breath of Your nostrils.
He sent from on high, He took me; He drew me out of many waters.
He delivered me from my strong enemy,
And from those who hated me, for they were too mighty for me.
They confronted me in the day of my calamity,
But the LORD was my stay.
He brought me forth also into a broad place; He rescued me, because He delighted in me.

Legacy Conference-Thoughts

It took place in Chicago last week. I am still processing over what happened. I headed out Wednesday Morning on the 22nd. It was a very long bus ride but it was enjoyable, a time for laughing and cracking jokes. It was cool. My problem was that my backpack had me feeling like I was a Sherpa. That first night I was able to get to see new books, I bought one about John Knox, the other was on prayer. The group that was there worshipped together and afterwards had a few icebreakers. I heard from a lot of organizations and Universities that were trying to make Christ known through their work.
On the 23rd we had morning devotions on the benediction at the end of Jude I think. It had been such  blessing. I wish I could have recorded everything. There was a lot of teaching and poetry.
What I go from everything is that faith in Christ should from the inside out. Knowledge of God should make us want to tell more people, make disciples, a passion for Christ needs to be spread because God is worthy.
I was blessed by my time there and got to see some old friends. I got to meet a Wretched radio friend face to face.
May God work in me.