To be a sister

I was searching through the books for sale at church. My eyes roamed over the titles and once again they paused over Godly Intimacy in a godly marriage I think that's the name. I shake my head and now I think why the heck do I need to go to a Sunday school about marriage. Right now my flesh is saying forget it I don't need to go to that. I go to a small church, it's mostly made up of married people, two young men, and me the older single lady. I have read so many books about marriage it's not even funny which is why that book will never be on my bookshelf. I diverged so far from my original premise that it's not even funny. So I kept looking and saw a book about loving others which would probably help a lot. I am trying to learn right now to love my brothers. What can I do to love? God has convicted me of my attitude but I know that it's through Him and His living and active Word can my heart change. I would put examples on how I don't know how to treat people but it's not funny to me. It's kind of sad. To those who have dealt with my attitude I repent knowing that it's a sin to lash out at people with bitterness. I regret not really knowing people because I want to keep my heart safe.

How God uses Singleness

Singleness...what do I say about it. It's a gift that I don't particularly want. It's something that I need. It would be easy if I were in a relationship or even married to make the other person my idol... Just like I have made marriage my idol. At the end of this year I will be 35 and this is what God has taught me.

The primary lesson is that God, Jesus Christ is preeminent.

Colossians 1:15-20 ESV
He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation. For by him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities-all things were created through him and for him. And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together. And he is the head of the body, the church. He is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead, that in everything he might be preeminent. For in him all the fullness of God was pleased to dwell, and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether on earth or in heaven, making peace by the blood of his cross.

Second, people cannot satisfy my restless soul.

Psalm 62:1-2,5-6,8 ESV
For God alone my soul waits in silence; from him comes my salvation. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be greatly shaken.
For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him. He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us. Selah

Third, unlike people, God's promises made in His word, shall come to pass.

2 Peter 1:4 ESV
by which he has granted to us his precious and very great promises, so that through them you may become partakers of the divine nature, having escaped from the corruption that is in the world because of sinful desire.

There is so much more to say about singleness and how God uses it to have us dependant and trust Him.