Gutted

I ran across an old friend yesterday. First this she mentioned is that her daughter is getting married... Wow I asked the age and after hearing "25" I was at a point to go hide somewhere and lick my wounds. May God help me with this because He has given me all that I need. It is a sin when I dwell on it.

So at this frame of mind I went to Wednesday Night Connection. Peavy Park has been an opportunity to share the Gospel and what it means to be born again. Its easy to be in our own Christian circle and not reach out to the Unsaved, unrepentant sinner, we like they deserve the wrath of God yet we have been washed, given a new heart and new desires, and filled with the Holy Spirit that we might walk according to the statutes of God. This is done through the proclamation of the Gospel of Jesus, His work, His coming, His life, death, and resurrection, and call to repent, die to sin and live to righteousness, and believe.

While at the Event I saw a battle take place. I realize something we as Christian have to have the full armour of God on and be ready for battle at all times. We can't cower, we can't hide or how would we be fruitful in our walk?

(NASB)Ephesians 6:10-18
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of His might. [11] Put on the full armor of God, so that you will be able to stand firm against the schemes of the devil. [12] For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places. [13] Therefore, take up the full armor of God, so that you will be able to resist in the evil day, and having done everything, to stand firm. [14] Stand firm therefore, HAVING GIRDED YOUR LOINS WITH TRUTH, and HAVING PUT ON THE BREASTPLATE OF RIGHTEOUSNESS, [15] and having shod YOUR FEET WITH THE PREPARATION OF THE GOSPEL OF PEACE; [16] in addition to all, taking up the shield of faith with which you will be able to extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. [17] And take THE HELMET OF SALVATION, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. [18] With all prayer and petition pray at all times in the Spirit, and with this in view, be on the alert with all perseverance and petition for all the saints,

Its easy to take the attacks and limp on, but I have been convinced that we have to fight. We can't play and believe we will win the battle. Put on strength believer! God please grant us victory, be magnified in purifying your bride.

Provided for

God has provided for me all that I need for life and godliness. God has shown me His salvation, has filled me with the Holy Spirit that enables me to walk according to the statutes of God. Yesterday my family was watching television and I have been realizing more and more that this screen that is turned on is very much like the picture room in Ezekiel 8:7-13

Then He brought me to the entrance of the court, and when I looked, behold, a hole in the wall. [8] He said to me, "Son of man, now dig through the wall." So I dug through the wall, and behold, an entrance. [9] And He said to me, "Go in and see the wicked abominations that they are committing here." [10] So I entered and looked, and behold, every form of creeping things and beasts and detestable things, with all the idols of the house of Israel, were carved on the wall all around. [11] Standing in front of them were seventy elders of the house of Israel, with Jaazaniah the son of Shaphan standing among them, each man with his censer in his hand and the fragrance of the cloud of incense rising. [12] Then He said to me, "Son of man, do you see what the elders of the house of Israel are committing in the dark, each man in the room of his carved images? For they say, ''The LORD does not see us; the LORD has forsaken the land.''" [13] And He said to me, "Yet you will see still greater abominations which they are committing."

There is a way that seems right to a man that is an abomination to God. I have to remember to keep my conviction and not get near it. I am not entertained by TV. How can you grow in Christ if you do like the very things that non-Christians like? Christians have to grown in godliness, grow in communion with the Lord, seek to know God more, period. Some people thought that when God saved me that the zeal would not last.  That the passion for Christ would not remain. I stumble I am not perfect but in direction I am heading home. I ask God to conform me to His image, to be transformed day by day, to know Him, whether this means singleness or marriage praise be to God. I will trust Him. I will endeavour to remember that.

On the Road to Green Bay, WI

On the Road to Green Bay, WI. I have spoken to some of my friends about my concerns and fears. I will be careful because of the music, I will examine if what I see is in one accord with the word of God. Yet if God grants me the words to speak I will. I am going to the Rock the Lakes in Green Bay by the Billy Graham Association. I will proclaim the works of Christ, commend His deeds to the next generation. May God grant repentance and faith.

Its God

It started out with Friday a time for fellowship and crying out for a move of God. Friday was a time of rejoicing and prayer, of worship and seeing God in the scriptures. GLORY BE TO GOD THE FATHER, GOD THE SON AND GOD THE SPIRIT. Then Saturday morning began at 6:40 am, I had plans today to have caramel highlights put in my hair and get a henna tattoos on my hands. I was uneasy about it yet I would not ask a brother's opinion so he would say no. Yet I was uneasy so I asked two dear sisters. They said no. So I thought well I will still get my hair done. My phone went missing I thought well I will leave without it. I prayed that I would find the phone... Well then I told God if you reveal my phone I will cancel my hair appointment and go straight to my sister's place. I had wanted to gain favor and attention and God revealed the sin lying behind it. Due to my continuing singleness and well-meaning people giving advice I deep down wanted to say by my looks look at me, see me... After that prayer God revealed the phone so I canceled the hair appointment. I went straight to my sister's house, all by God's doing. I was able to minister and exhort I went out to eat with my sisters then went with them to the art museum. It was very interesting I enjoyed going through and seeing modest beauty of yesteryear, landscapes, period rooms, and armour. Then my younger sister and I headed back to St. Paul. God thwarted plans I had made and His will was done. What He wants is my sanctification.

While I wait

Well I have been told that this is not a period of waiting...

 Ok I have been using this time. I have had periods where I have not used this time as I should. Yet I see how God has changed me. I know who I am supposed to be and God has been changing me. Cleaning is hard for me, yet when I do it feels good to get things clean. I am trying to be responsible with my money. It is hard because I slip easily on this.

I have had people tell me to dress nice, to put on makeup, to do certain things that men may notice. God sees not as men see. I will hide in Christ.

If you want fluff don't look for me I will not hide my love for Christ to have some half saved half baked man notice me. Get to stepping.

This is who I am. I belong to God and He is foremost in my affections. I evangelize that His name may be known. I want to be a missionary. I try to exhort. God knows knows who I am weak, overweight, blind, proud, impatient.

I'm not pretty yet God has called me for His own. God who called the world into existence, who makes blind people see, who makes the earth tremble at His voice, who bought a people by His blood. My life is in His hands may He use it as He sees fit.