Counseling

I go to a counselor every two weeks.  And she says we are going to touch on an area in my life that I hate. It's hard when you know there is a sinful attitude but you are afraid to look at it because of things in the past. Hopefully in looking at it there can be healing.

A steady diet of the word of God

I was at the G3 conference and during a sermon on Sanctification I heard him expound on Bible reading and Scripture memorization. This is a good thing. There are so many verses that uphold the importance of Scripture. It is like gold.... It is profitable for teaching, for reproof, for training in righteousness...... Jesus went through the old testament and using the prophets taught two men on the road to Emmaus who he was. Jesus the Messiah. In the Scriptures one does in a sense find eternal life because it testifies of Jesus.

New Year but Same Old Me!

It is 2018 yet I am still Levita. No matter if my looks change. The one thing that I pray that God through the Holy Spirit will change me. That He will renew my mind and it says in Romans 12,

Romans 12:1-2 ESV
I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.

That God would day by day conform me to the image of His Son the more that I see Him and grow to love Him more.

2 Corinthians 4:16-18 ESV
So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.

This year I do not have my usual wish.....which was to get married before my birthday. I had made marriage into an idol for a long time. This year I am looking to God to show me what He wants for my life. There is an opportunity for ministry work that I place in the Lord's hands. I have been reading much and see that I have been given a blessing a great opportunity to serve the Lord. Wherever God has me may I say, "Lord I am your handmaid may it be for me as You will."
My life belongs to the Lord and it's hidden in Christ my Saviour.

In a place where Love and Mercy meet

I am thinking of a hymn.

"When I survey the wondrous cross
On which the Prince of glory died,
My richest gain I count but loss,
And pour contempt on all my pride."

In times where I am overwhelmed it's hard to remember God and the comfort He offers. Yet it's there at the cross where  I need to go everyday not because it need to happen anew. No. I just need to remember God's justice and God's mercy is found at the cross. It is finished.

2 Corinthians 1:3-5 ESV
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For as we share abundantly in Christ's sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too.