A blur going by

For a few minutes
Dominating the landscape
Markers two feets high
Their color varying according to how long
These men have been dead
Some are yellowed rom long wear other a white marble
In an infantry pattern
Thousands of stones in formation
Military men asleep
For a few minutes they pass by crystal clear in the wake of a train
Will the troops awaken to a different battle

A road diverged and realizing it

Well I am realizing that watching TV really does not aid in growth unless its shows like Word Pictures. I have been begging God that He might continue to change my heart and mind towards Jesus Christ. I have been realizing I need to learn what true submission is. I realize my impatience just shows when I am not. I pray that God's will be done. He has blessed me so much even in me being ill. I have asked God to humble me He is definitely working to grow me into the type of woman that will give him much glory. My eyes are on Jesus His work is truly beautiful. I have been reading a book by Elisabeth Elliot calll Let Me Be a Woman it has taught me so many things. To trust God, that He made me a woman for a reason, that I have to pour out myself to others, and that my feminity is not stunted and can be used to aid other women. I hope in God, trust in God, and will pour myself out for God.

God at Work

Unbelievers scare me because at times they try to fly the banner of Christ but if one looks closer at the banner one can see its made up of lewd acts strung together and a mockery of the cross at the center. They dare fly the banner all the while disobeying God's word. God calls us to holiness. Are believers supposed to look like the world, act like the world, and love the world? God says clearly those that love the world do not have the Father. Circumstances that are hard come to the life of unbelievers and believers alike. Yet believers (meaning those who are new creations through the abiding work of Jesus Christ) see this as a trial meant to draw them closer to God, for His glory. To unbelievers its an inconvenience God should take away. Some protest Jesus is my savior a friend told me something along these lines they call His savior but He is not their Lord. Those He has saved have Him as Lord their banner was made by Christ in a glowing radience no human can make. We are saved by an innocence not our own. WE NEED CHRIST! If you don't depend on Him what makes one think He has saved you? Everyone needs the salvation purchased by Christ on the cross. The question is if God saved you how can you remain the same.

Taste and see that God is good

I was late this morning and missed 2 session. I went to my 2nd conference. It has been a blessing but I can honestly say I am more in awe of God. There were very well known speakers and I am glad I spent the money. I just want so much to go out and tell everyone about the awesome God I serve. I guess what I am hoping is that I do not get complacent in my walk. That I look to Christ who justifies me. That I look to the cross, and say behold that is where Jesus redeemed me and made me His child, was not one of His names in Isaiah mighty Father? I have been blessed and it brings me into a joy that God will complete the work in me. God will humble me and have me as a slave to righteousness all of His doing and I will enjoy it because in His presence there is fullness of joy. He is the living water, the bread, the first born of all creation and He has set me free. Hell is real yet that is not the reason to Christ. Heaven is real but that is no reason to turn to Christ. Jesus is the reason for His glory, for the fame of His Name.
I am a woman, a redeemed sinner who longs to reflect God in a gentle and quiet nature. In whatever way He plans for me I will submit to. In singleness or marriage God will be my portion not because of my doing but because not one person held in His hand shall be lost. Praise be to God.

Its Friday

This week has flown by. Moving and bible study and potluck, now at the conference. I an waiting now so sleepy I wonder if I can take a nap in the little room I am hiding out at. I have to wait until 1. Yesteday was such a blessing so many different people blessed by different verses in God's word. I have been thinking about God about Jesus. It has been so different trusting upon God. I want Him to know everything. God helps meplease Him by having His Holy Spirit santify me. I am so sleepy. Blessed by friends.

Diary of a Christian female 4/3/11

How great is Jesus that He changes lawbreakers to the image of His Son? Sons and daughters of the Most High, who He is, is too wonderful too Holy for me to understand. In love because He has love me so I seek a life that is centered on Christ. Living in repentance and faith daily and looking at the Cross where Jesus paid my penalty. I am a woman a bossy, proud, loud woman who needs the work of the Holy Spirit to make me into a quiet, and gentle and submissive woman, who fears the Lord and long to look upon Him for the satisfaction of my soul. There are days when idols and fears prop up and I my thoughts sin against God but I am fighting that when my thoughts turn to pride or fear or coveting that I may trust in God and if He is to be trusted to take the penalty or my evil how shall I not trust Him to sustain me, to love me, to change me into so much more than my sinful flesh could be. May these reflections bring glory to Jesus Christ for so great a salvation that reveals His Wisdom and His Power.

Learning then living

I like this quote "live and learn are for those in the world". Christians should learn from God's word and mature believers how to live according to God's standard. Most people tell me how can a person learn if not by living it out. Its like a person jumping into a swamp with signs warning of alligators and only after being maimed by the animal keeping away. How many people have been injured by different sins by hatred, by disobedience, by wanting what is not yours, by lust for another person.  I am maimed and that made me realize God gave these admonitions to prevent guilt and shame. Its like Genesis 2:25  And the man and his wife were both naked and were not ashamed. If we take heed to the warnings of the bible we will not fear anyone's gaze but also our righteousness is from God.

Diary of a Christian female 4/1/11

I have realized that maybe the way I worded the title of my entries showed much about my heart I was defining myself as a single first and Christian second. It is Christ who defines me and my life. I am out and about today worked for 5 hours and some change. I am feeling ok contemplating about God and what He wants to make of me. Right now He is my portion. May He forever be so.