At a conference

So Friday and Saturday I was able to take in much of a conference in Atlanta, Georgia called the G3 conference. The focus was on Missions. What I learned is that one must have zeal tempered by love when it comes to missions. That we must be grounded in the word of God. That the local church must have an interest in Missions. That we must be a set apart people if we are called to ministry, That the knowledge of God's sovereignty in salvation should motivate us more to proclaim the Gospel. There is so much more that I learned but without my notes with which to truly outline the sermons it's difficult. I kind of wish my mind was able to capture more clearly the sermon but alas my memory is not what it used to be. This weekend has been special for me it makes me realize that I love having people to worship with. That I love my church family. I miss them when I am away. I like getting excited with them and praying with them. I like that Christ is central to us... I learned though the body of Christ is innumerable a multitude of people from every nation tribe and tongue. I just have to learn to love better. To communicate and not escape. But anyway I will try to organize my thoughts better for next time. My prayer is that there be application of God's word in our lives, that there will be a spiritual awakening. That we will live our lives by the aid of the Holy Spirit and by the grace of God we will live for the glory and the name of Jesus! To Him be the glory forever and ever, Amén.

Love God

Romans 5:3-5 KJV
And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; And patience, experience; and experience, hope: And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us.

I was thinking of this verse today. The love of God transforms through the Holy Spirit.

Don't wait

Ladies in Waiting it's a title of a book I bought in the beginning of my walk with the Lord. I have been single my whole life but when you are a child who cares. The premise of the book is about how do you change while you're waiting for a husband to come along. I realized something though we should not wait for Life to come around. And I don't mean that life begins when you get married. Neither do I mean that a man will fulfill you. We must as ramblin live lives that are wholeheartedly devoted and fully surrender to the Lord. I don't have blinders on when it comes to marriage. I have seen the toll that minor issues can make. Marriage is not about having perfect romantic moments. It's about basically being joined to another sinner and God using that to sanctify you. So the other day I met up with a Christian lady she is single as well. We were able to talk about some things. I have been finding it so great to be able to talk to other people about things that are going on. Things that I am convicted of. It's even better to get together to pray. In a way there are some things that marriage contains that one can want and desire. I love kids and yes there is a way in that you can have time with kids and you can work with kids and it's wonderful. I guess that is one thing that I wrestle with because of my age and my health problems and just that you can't really have kids without a husband in the Christian walk anyway. But as for living my life,  my life is His and I want only to wait upon Him. Maranatha come Lord Jesus.

Just a moment

There is a bittersweet longing
Of something I want to know
And may never know
A dream of long ago
Now a barrenness I created
There is a silent illness
An unknown infection coursing through my veins
It spikes and ebbs but is always there
Is it sin? Is the stain of sin so deep that it marked me within
Will I wait with no answer?
No reason yet knowing that You know....
For my good, for your glory....
For God alone my soul waits in silence.