Not waiting

I should be up and doing something. I just am finding myself pondering contentment during the marriage class in my church's Sunday school.
I sent a letter with questions to the pastor about what is it to find someone to run the Christian race with. To seek a person for the reason of ministry.
I am wrong I know. In the Bible times were different.... Yet so much easier everything arranged by the families. Now Christian women wait for action from men and it sucks.
Worldly men come at me all the time and I hate that. Christian men locally don't look at me.
Today it was an especially difficult class because it didn't seem to give any hope for those who are single to have their desire for marriage be calmed by fellowship and friendship.
My heart is quick to find offence or to be sorrowed when it come to hearing about marriage. It is brought about by God. He orchestrates it and brings people together.
Contentment I long for, wanting to find my joy in seeing Christ, seeking His face, and being in His word. It's hard but worth it, I want to fight for holding fast to Christ by the work of the Holy Spirit.

Gratitude

It was hard for me to be thankful for the little things, because I focused on what I did not have... I felt like I had done my Christian duty why was God not fulfilling that desire in me to be a wife and mother and later on I got upset with not being granted the opportunity to go for a short time and be on the mission field.
God has taught me since to be grateful for my union with Christ. That He has granted to me all I needed. He has provided a body of believers to fellowship with.
I have a hard time being myself sometimes around them. I hate whining about singleness. I want my faith to be strengthened. I want my friends and family to trust the Lord and be found in Him, clothed in His righteousness alone that day.
I have found that being in the word and being in prayer is such blessing to me. During the day the Scriptures rise up in my mind and strengthen my soul. I want my life to be lived for the Lord. My life belongs to Him.

The prayer life of a believer

So many prayers are in the Bible. From one Psalm the cries out Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
Psalm 65:2 ESV
O you who hear prayer, to you shall all flesh come.
There are also the word in which God promises to be there.
Psalm 50:15 ESV
and call upon me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify me."

So what do you pray for Jesus in the Lord prayer this is what Jesus prays.

Matthew 6:9-13 ESV
Pray then like this: "Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name. Your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

And He prays in John 17 that we be one with Him as He is one with the Father.
Paul for the Colossians prays that...
Colossians 1:9-14 ESV
And so, from the day we heard, we have not ceased to pray for you, asking that you may be filled with the knowledge of his will in all spiritual wisdom and understanding, so as to walk in a manner worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing to him: bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God;  being strengthened with all power, according to his glorious might, for all endurance and patience with joy;  giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in light. He has delivered us from the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of his beloved Son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.

I have been more and more convicted about our need for prayer. That we be strengthened in our inner being. That we a rooted and grounded in Love. That we fight and not remain stagnant. That we love one another with a pure heart. That we be more conformed to the image of Christ. That we count all things as loss compared to the reality of knowing Christ as Lord. That we see him and know him and love Him for He is worthy.

Fighting the Good Fight

The growth of a Christian walk is something to be undertaken even though it means hard work, spiritual battles and temptations from the flesh and from the world. It means reading God's word even though at times it does not move me as it should. It means seeking to live a life of purity though at times there is failure. It means praying even though at times it seems God is not there and is not listening to my prayers. These are lies though, God's word never returns void, it's always profitable. Those who are pure at heart the promise is they shall see God. Thirdly the Holy Spirit Himself intercedes for us. Our will when it's alined to God's will there is peace despite the battles and adversity from within and without. So as believers we have to put on the full armour of God and seek to live lives pleasing to the Lord.

Ephesians 6:10-19 ESV
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end, keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints, and also for me, that words may be given to me in opening my mouth boldly to proclaim the mystery of the gospel,