Monday morning

I woke up at 6:10 am and worshipped the Lord. Today by the grace of God I pray the communion and hope and trust will grow. I am young according to some but at 28 and with now 8 gray hairs that have graced my head I know that there can be fools and wise at any stage in life. When I am in the word and seek to please God bad dreams filled with immorality play throughout the night and condemn me come morning. I pray for today God may You be magnified in my life. May I live in such a way that points to You. JESUS my saviour and God. You who bore my sins as a man cursed by hanging on the tree. Praise is due to You Lamb that was slain to purchase a people for Yourself. Give me peace in my circumstances may my desires be conformed to Your will. God lift my brothers to be godly men, in whatever roles they have, give them a zeal to glorify You. May my sisters be women with a quiet and gentle spirit submitting to the authorities placed in their lives. May Your word abide in us. May Your Spirit overflow within. Great are You Lord and Worthy to be Praised.

Evangelism and open air for women

I have been thinking long and hard about open air. I once upon a time proclaimed the Gospel by lifting my voice to proclaim the Gospel. I thought nothing of it. Later on I was told that it was for the men to do. I did not know what to think. I know that women must not teach men. Yet is open air preaching different? I am not because I am still on the fence but I do evangelize, one on one. May God give me boldness to share the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

Sin, temptation and true love

I am filled with envy when I hear news of another engagement or another wedding. While I am happy for them I wonder why not me? When I was in Memphis I talked to a friend about this. Yet more news came and I wondered is there anywhere I can go to hide. I can't hide from the undeniable fact that many will get married. Yet God has called me to wait on His timing but that does not mean that my life is on hold.
God has taught me this, no matter if I am married or single that God is the one whom my soul must love.

Who is God? Who is Christ? Who is He that we should take notice?

In Isaiah 53 it says this about Christ

he had no form or majesty that we should look at him, and no beauty that we should desire him. He was despised and rejected by men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief; and as one from whom men hide their faces he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

Yet who Christ is great and can be found in both the old and new testament

This is one I love from Colossians

He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation. For by him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities—all things were created through him and for him. And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together. And he is the head of the body, the church. He is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead, that in everything he might be preeminent.  For in him all the fullness of God was pleased to dwell, and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether on earth or in heaven, making peace by the blood of his cross.

So is He not the true beloved from Song of Solomon. So He is worthy of all our trust and love.

I was reading romance novels again. I hate them yet why do the lies come saying that they are a substitute for what I do not have.

Four weddings and a funeral

I will be attending four weddings this year. God has created marriage to be a picture of Christ and the church. That people might see a picture of the love of Christ. How patient He is. The intimacy of knowing truly knowing another person. I want that and that is why this year I will die that I may rejoice with those who rejoice and just be glad to be there to witness the wedding like John the Baptist. God help me that my flesh may be crucified with Christ. Lord may You be magnified, and lifted up in these marriages. You are my All Sufficient One.

Illness

There are people that through weakness and through illness they get closer to God. I will pray in the future that it may be such a thing. That being weak means Jesus will be my strength. I weary of the battle but I see what not fighting does. It leads to sin. Flee from temptation, rise watch and pray lest ye fall into temptation. Flee from the wratch to come. I know I am deserving not of God's grace but of His punishment yet He died that I may have life in Him. God please help me.