Living to Glorify God

I live with family and I am not going to say anything about their walk. I realize that I am in another stage. I have been down. I have surrendered to him. I have other things I must surrender. I have so much sorrow when it comes to others but God has been good to me and continues to be good. God is in control and I will pray that he will work in the people I know. 

See in Me

I see so many things rolling inside me. My flesh is doing battle with the Spirit of God who is growing me in holiness. The things I want to do I cannot do. 

I am angry at my older sister and I am wrong. She rejects God and it makes me angry. I cannot see how anyone can refuse so great a salvation. I give her over to the hands of God I can do nothing. I can't push people into growing in holiness. How much can I say. I stumble, I am a sinner. I need my savior each day. I don't ever want to be complacent about reading the bible, about gathering with other believers. About evangelizing. I want to proclaim our state before God and Christ Crucified. I deserve Hell but The only Savior paid the penalty for my sin. I am wicked yet He drank the cup of God's wrath draining it. In three hours Christ suffered more than any sinner would in hell. Do you think really God standards his justice is so weak. He slew his own Son because he hated sin so much. Sin requires punishment we are wretched evil vile corrupted worms .

Trials

My mom has cancer once again. I am among charismatics who believe if you say it you claim it. If you have enough faith healing will happen. What happens when it does not? No, matter what I know God is with me and I will cling to him. I know God heals but it is not up to us. It is not by our faith or lack of it. It is not due to the past, it is all in the hands of God. Should we take the good from God but not the bad even though it may mean He wants us not to rely on ourselves but only on our Savior and God.