Can we talk about God please...

I don't know much about biblical fellowship. Actually I do know some. I remember when a few years ago I would go out with a group of people after the service we would meet in Perkins, and we would talk about the Lord and encourage and exhort one another until the restaurant closed. I am not idealizing this.
I miss those days. I have a feeling of urgency like I am running out of time. God has equipped me but I do not know for what I am a single woman... I am limited in my scope.

Prayer

My prayer. I don't want a manufactured excitement about You God. I don't want to hear a song and then want to praise You. From old You have been a Good who has acted on behalf of Your creation. We are your handiwork made for good works. I stand in awe knowing only the limited amount through Your word of Your works. My prayer is like that of Moses show me Your glory, that I may more and more depart from sin. That I may love You more and fear doing wrong. My life this life is yours do with it what You will because though it's a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God, where else can I go you have the words of eternal life. There are so many moments that my flesh is drawn to sin, that my flesh is drawn to idolatry not even bad things but good things You supply. Please let my eyes seek You foremost.

Vulnerable

I hate vulnerability but God is showing me that.

1) God sustains me
2) I am weak
3) following my emotions is foolish

I am listening to a book that is showing me that "the heart is deceitfully wicked"....

God has impressed upon me that I want to be a woman of character even if it means serving in the little things.

In the end this is what I ask for.
Psalm 27:4 NASB
One thing I have asked from the LORD, that I shall seek: That I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the LORD And to meditate in His temple.