A beauty within

Song of Solomon 1:5-6 NASB
"I am black but lovely, O daughters of Jerusalem, Like the tents of Kedar, Like the curtains of Solomon. "Do not stare at me because I am swarthy, For the sun has burned me. My mother's sons were angry with me; They made me caretaker of the vineyards, But I have not taken care of my own vineyard.

I am not beautiful by any standards. I have dark circles under my eyes no matter how much sleep I get, my hair wild and curly, my skin often dry.....
I have wasted so much time conforming myself attitude wise to be soft spoken and nice, but the reality of who I am is brutally honest to the point of being tactless. I have though stopped trying to please the males of human kind, I still find myself among women and churchfolk bending over backwards to be kind to have a good reputation among them.
I don't know what will come of me but I am seeing through prayer and scripture meditation that God through His Holy Spirit will change that in me, both my attitude and the fear of man.

Love Journal

I feel the need to share some things that I have learned about love. Yes love is patient, love is kind, it does not boast or demand its own way. Love hopes all things, believes all things, love never fails.
It is clear that the love this world puts forth is not love at all. If we love with the love of God it means not having our way. It mean looking out for the good of others. Love means being there and not turning away even when we are not feeling loving. It is giving one's life. It's not meritted but it's there. It's being vulnerable enough to be upset, to be candid and honest, it is letting people know you and love you. God's love is there irregardless of the amount of our good works, whether we are more like Paul or like the thief on the cross. The love of God is there to those who repent and believe by the working of the Holy Spirit. Anyway just contemplating on that today.