Hope in God

Psalm 43:5 ESV
Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation and my God.

Psalm 33:16-22 ESV
The king is not saved by his great army; a warrior is not delivered by his great strength. The war horse is a false hope for salvation, and by its great might it cannot rescue.
Behold, the eye of the LORD is on those who fear him, on those who hope in his steadfast love, that he may deliver their soul from death and keep them alive in famine.
Our soul waits for the LORD; he is our help and our shield. For our heart is glad in him, because we trust in his holy name.
Let your steadfast love, O LORD, be upon us, even as we hope in you.

I will say this to myself first and foremost. Marriage is not the be-all end-all. It may seem bigger than it is when looking at prolonged singleness when you still have the desire for marriage. We are meant first and foremost to hope in God. Those who hope in other things will stumble. Those who set there hope in the Lord shall not be ashamed their faces radiant. Sometimes though it does sorrow me. To see others who have that. Others my age who have a whole brood of children. Then I realize this is where God has me. That He is my hope my portion in the land of the living. That my life is His and I rest in Him. Why are you downcast O my soul? Hope in God!

Thoughts 2/16/19

James 4:6-10 ESV
But he gives more grace. Therefore it says, "God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble." Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Be wretched and mourn and weep. Let your laughter be turned to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will exalt you.

I find my mind wandering where it should not go. My folly wanting what I do not have. My dreams betraying me and revealing the very thing I want to stamp out. Yet I plead with God that He may help me. I am weak and weary of the battle but I know that He is worthy. And He will keep my life not for my sake but for the glory of His Name. God I rest my hope upon the fact that You are an all sufficient God and have provided all that I have needed I have no lack. I have hoped for a change in my life circumstances but in the end You know. I find joy in You hope in You. Lord lead me to the rock that is higher than I. Let me quench my thirst and cause water that flows in a life giving fountain well up within me. Marriage and children are a poor substitute if I don't have You Lord. My life belongs to You Lord do with it what You will.