Broken Cysterns and Living Water

Its is easy in a culture that seeks self-gratification that seeks to serve the flesh and its desires to skip over some sections of the bible in order to feel better about sins committed against God. For months I was guilty of not reading the bible at all in order not to feel convicted about some of the sins I committed.

I had sought to hew my own cystern in order to feel satisfied in the singleness I had been given. Sin does not satisfy and it is easy when you hide from godly people to live in a way that is displeasing to God.

For months now I have been seeking God that He might help my continuously give my desires and choices completely to Him. As I have been reading Quest for Love it has held up the biblical principles such a chastity, purity, self-denial, patience and sacrifice. In a world that scoffs at the idea of denying yourself taking up your cross and following God such things are mocked but before God is a fruit. A good fruit on a good branch thast will not be cut up and burned.
The beatitudes a quick to point at the character God instills in the believer and is quick to reveal the rewards that such character will receive from God.

Matthew 5:3, 6, 8 NASB
"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. [6] "Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied. [8] "Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.

Everyday I will draw near to God and in doing so may He receive the glory. Because now "I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me."

May that be the manner in which I live in humility, in purity, and patiently waiting not on an earthly bridegroom but for my heavenly one.

Seeing through a mirror dimly

I think the bible verse goes well when I don't understand why God orchestrates some things. God is powerful and merciful slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love. My birthday is in 2 days and I am at peace with being 31. This life the people and family I have seen, the friends I have made, have taught me so much. I won't be melodramatic or overemotional and act corny. The life God has granted me its moments, adventures, troubles, sorrow, and everything in between except my own sin has been a gift. Thank You God, in that You have shown me, a chubby girl from an island in the Caribbean, over and over Your son. You have been the beloved asking His bide to come away with Him to me. You have been a comforting Father, my confidant, a fellow warrior in this journey. The battle to kill sin is ongoing. I read this verse just today and I will hold it dear, Psalm 17:15
"As for me, I shall behold Your face in righteousness; I will be satisfied with Your likeness when I awake."

Looking at 31 but not in Proverbs

This life is yours God and in six days I will be 31. What do I say upon reflection but that I am so humbled that the Lord sought me in all my foolishness. That He has shown me how far I have come from my first love. Yet God in His mercy was like the beloved in Song of Solomon who went to her door in the middle of the night. Yet who am I that you should grant me grace. My time in Puerto Rico was a blessing and the reason why is because I read the word of the Living God, and sought Him in prayer, and word, and worship. James 4:8 NASB "Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded." He has given me repentance for many things. And has been so kind to me. I would say more but these things are not meant to be shared for anyone other than God and maybe later to whom God has willed to be my spouse.

Change

It has been such a short amount of time. 8 days really to spend time with family. To see this island my dad is from. My extended family are kind and loving. They are each unique and I know that they will live and I don't know where they will end up or how it will happen. Yet I ask God that he might sustain them and draw them to Himself.
I as a writer when I have a character in mind I have the ability to put them on hold, to not tell their story. With God it is different.
He is there with each who is alive. No one can hide from His sight. Their life unfolds according to His purposes.

I have had adventures in my time away from Minnesota. I still do not know where and to what purpose I have been called. The good thing is there have been no harming of Levita with any matchmaking attempts. So I have one day left and there has been much to think about and reflect upon. May what has happened and will happen be to the Glory of my Heavenly Father who is with me always.

Puerto Rico Day 1-2 Activity and contemplation of God

It has been a blessing to come to Puerto Rico. I have seen my cousins and my aunt and her husband. They have all been so kind. Ate a lot of food. Yummy. It has been summer hot and that has been hard but I will appreciate the Minnesota cold.

My aunt asked me whether I have preached before. Open air yes. So far all that has been on me as a  calling is to encourage people, and to give th gospel. To have them look at Christ as their all in all. I went to a church today it is a small church but they really love Christ I hope to go to their prayer service on Wednesday. I have been listening to an album in spanish and as I sit here on this bed contemplating God and his ever present mercy upon me. Tears of thankfulness well up in my eyes and I am humbled in knowing that He in His kindness has led me here. I am single and not forgotten of God, instead he has led my steps. I find myself looking at the cross at Christ.Where I am sorrowed at my sin nailed to the cross, humbled at His kindness. And though I sin I bear it no more and seek repentance.  May I be pure in heart that I might see God.

And when I am alone give me Jesus..... you can have all this world give me Jesus.