Preaching Online

I feel blessed that my brother pointed out an opportunity for me to still be a witness even if it is online. Yet I want so much to do open air preaching yet I need encouragement and to have other believers with me good fellowship provides that. Anyway I have been around an issue I had one disagreement and just cut myself from the situation. I have so much going on right now. I want more than anything that my life may be used to glorify God. He knows my inner thought so I do not have to say more. I am entrusting my future to His hands. I wish I could know what happens to me in the future. I love this saying I heard it at the end of Ten Shekels and a Shirt so I will use it now May the Lamb that was slain receive the reward of His sufferings. Let my life be lived for Christ that whatever happens I will submit to Him. 

Not Right

I have been neglecting fellowship I decided to stay home. I have not been evangelizing at all and you know what I long for that. Why do I seek what is not of the Lord. God should be first and I should proclaim Him from the roof tops. We are filthy rotten creatures who do not deserve the mercy of God yet He was willing to die for us while we nailed Him to the cross with our crimes. We need Him don't think you don't. I don't ever want to turn away from Jesus.

An Idol of the mind

Hosea 6:4-7

"O Isreal and Judah what should I do with you?" asks the Lord. "For your love vanishes like the morning mist and disappears like dew in the sunlight. I sent my prophets to cut you to pieces-to slaughters you with my words, with judgements as inescapable as light. I want you to show love, not offer sacrifices. I want you to know me more than I want burnt offerings. But like Adam, you broke my covenant and betrayed my trust.

I  too have broken that covenant even now when the LORD has been merciful to a sinner like me. Why do I not love Him as He should be loved. Why do I not give Him more of my time. Other thoughts prevail rather than meditating on His sacredness. I would talk of thing of a biblical nature yet not use the word. The word He gave us by which to live. My walk has been stagnant yet I have learned that He has been merciful in showing me.

Love the Lord your God with all your soul heart and mind.

Yet what do I put in my mind rather than the things of God. I am ashamed. I hope to change I hope I become wiser in my walk. I have coveted an ideal. I have set it up on a pedestal, marriage and courtship in my mind. I was wrong. For that I have to pray for. I was created to glorify God and that is the manner in which I should live. To cling to the cross and relish in His mercy. God save me and change me.