Singleness is best for me, in that I will not dwell on could have, should, have and must have and seek what is truly priceless. Christ and Him as Lord for all eternity. It is much easier to write my thoughts rather than voice them and confess my sins in notes rather than share them in person. I did what was wrong and while it was not that "act" it was still just as bad.
I struggle and I am glad I struggle otherwise it would mean despising the work of the Lord in my life. My life has not been easy since Christ has saved me in fact it seems much harder as time goes on. Yet what I worry about, what grieves me is that do I hate God, that one no among many blessings will cause rebellion in my chest? It's so much easier to write it than say it to anyone. I want purity and its about time I expose the foundation of that evil, that idol, and burn it.
May Christ allow you all to see the idols in your lives and God allow us to die to self and live abiding in Him.
