Do the hard thing

1 Peter 4:7-10 ESV

The end of all things is at hand; therefore be self-controlled and sober-minded for the sake of your prayers. Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins. Show hospitality to one another without grumbling. As each has received a gift, use it to serve one another, as good stewards of God's varied grace:

I have been distressed and in mourning over things. My church is going through some stuff. It has been hard. What should I say about it I have not really talked to anyone but my husband and those who are affected and I am glad that I did. I have been wearied.

Lord's Day

I have been very reticent. It's hard when lately I have not wanted to go to church. I guess just conflict has me just burdened and depressed. When I am downcast my body ails me. Sucks. I have been though encouraged to know truths about God and His presence which is always there.

Psalm 139:4-5,9-10,15-16 ESV

Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O LORD, you know it altogether. [5] You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me. 

[9] If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, [10] even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me. 

[15] My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. [16] Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.

I will rest in that God despite my lack of faith is always with me. Though I am faithless He remains faithful.

To God be the glory for His steadfast love upon the children of man.