Saturday, September 16, 2017

A month of silence

God has been so kind and gracious to me. He has after years of fear had me pass a driving exam. He provided a vehicle through my dad. I am thankful for His work. My friends at church are a source of encouragement and I see more the need to have accountability and fellowship. Reading through the High Priestly prayer Jesus prayed in John 17. God displays there love and care.

Monday, July 17, 2017

Glimpse of grace in the Hardest of places

I do not write as often as I used to but I hope that what I do write will glorify and honor the Lord who is worthy to be praised. He came to earth, to his own people but they knew him not, but to those who did receive him, who believed upon his name, he gave the right to become children of God who were born, not by the will of the flesh, or the will of man, but of God (from John 1). What I feel burdened to write about, to encourage is the body of Christ. The local church in all the world knowing in some places that the meetings are clandestine. I used to be a member at a huge church and I hid there where I came out to served but never really knowing people and the people never really knowing me.
Fast-forward to now and I by God's grace meet with a smaller body of believers. Anyway just to say I love them and I love the leadership it is something that during this point in my life I need.
Anyway just to say that I have been thinking much about the hard places where there are believers where other religions dominate and being a Christian means persecution, fiery trials, sorrow yet where the beauty of Christ, looking at the Gospel and God by the Holy Spirit sustaining a little flock who are called by His name.
Being a Christian in the US....we are still called to die to ourselves to be pilgrims on our way to a better place a heavenly Zion even while getting glimpses of it here on earth. Christians are called to be knit to one another, encouraging one another, admonishing, caring, bearing with one another.
Anyway I will just cease my ramblings but not before I say this. Christ is worth the loss of our homes, our security, our property, He is a greater inheritance worth the loss of our very lives that we should gain Him and the power of His Resurrection. He grants a greater love, a greater hope, a greater joy, by bearing our cross. We bear our cross which means the death of our will, our desires for the sake of something that far surpasses the things of this world. May I and the body of Christ remember that.
I serve a living God. Christ is risen.

Sunday, July 9, 2017

Where the past and future meet

Proverbs 31:30 ESV
Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.

I have not written for a long time. What can I say about what the Lord has been doing. I have learned more to lean upon the Lord. That when my eyes are looking too much at myself there is only sorrow and discouragement. When my eyes behold the risen King seated at the right hand of the Majesty on High. The one whom the Seraphim say Holy Holy Holy. I am awed, and humbled, grieved over my sin yet knowing there is hope in the Lord.
I hope to remember. Yet I pray that in all thing the Lord will bind me to Himself. May God make me into a woman who fears the Lord entrusting my life, my heart, my soul, to His tender care.

Monday, May 8, 2017


There are figure in the Bible admired for different qualities they have.
David a man after God's heart. Jesus knows the heart of the Father and pleased Him.
Solomon who was given wisdom yet Jesus displayed God's wisdom.
Samson who had physical strength yet had sin in his life. A Nazarite by vow. Jesus having greater strength that He will trod upon His enemies in the winepress of His Wrath.
Jesus is greater, He is the object of our faith. He is God in human flesh. He is the King of Kings and Lord of Lords.

Sunday, April 30, 2017

Spirit Filled Christianity

I am reading a book by John MacArthur called Strange Fire. My opinions have long been that the Spirit has to be according to the parameters God sets forth in His Word. In the end the work of the Spirit has been to glorify Jesus Christ, the Son of God, second person of the Trinity. So in accordance to the Scriptures are these things going on in Charismatic churches a work of the Holy Spirit? The shaking? No. The falling back? No. If one looks at the Word it causes me to think more and more how good theology helps when faced with hardship and illness and even death.
1 Peter 1:6-9 NASB
In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials,  so that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which is perishable, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ; and though you have not seen Him, you love Him, and though you do not see Him now, but believe in Him, you greatly rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, obtaining as the outcome of your faith the salvation of your souls.

Friday, April 14, 2017

At the cross

It was there
In the distance was seen
A saviour crucified for me

Where a father's wrath was satisfied
And sinners set free
Where the penalty was gone
Leaving righteousness in it place

Surely this was truly grace

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

April 3, 2017

After watching a biography of Hudson Taylor I was astounded and praising the Lord in his work of drawing people. People like Hudson Taylor, Andrew Murray, George Whitfield, George Mueller, and David Brainard counted their life as loss. American Christianity has comforts, distractions, entertainments, that may take one's attention from the plow. We must look to Christ. We must live in the truth of the Gospel. Everytime I watch a biography of believers long ago I want to have a faith like they did. May I and my brothers and sisters in the faith continue to grow and mature in our walk with the Lord.