Just a moment

There is a bittersweet longing
Of something I want to know
And may never know
A dream of long ago
Now a barrenness I created
There is a silent illness
An unknown infection coursing through my veins
It spikes and ebbs but is always there
Is it sin? Is the stain of sin so deep that it marked me within
Will I wait with no answer?
No reason yet knowing that You know....
For my good, for your glory....
For God alone my soul waits in silence.