Dreams and wakefulness

In my dreams I feel powerless to stop myself from committing grievous sins. There is an attitude of wanting to seek feelings and fleeting moments of euphoria and just seeking and seeking and seeking with no satisfaction it was like my God was my belly but it was always hungry.
I didn't want to wake up I wanted to wallow in my slop. It is in those moments that I fear for my soul.
I used to be addicted to romance, to reading, there was an adrenaline rush when I read them. Books and my sin have polluted me. Yet God calls me to be pure. This can happen, by the renewing of my mind, God using His word to wash me.
May God conform me to His image, and may I draw close to Him.