Where is my trust?

It is so easy to question God. Why did God allow this to happen? Is God always good? Why does He not answer my prayer? I have realized this is a sin. Yes I do want to know why God does what He does. Why does He do what He does, yet what is this for me to know? I am but a woman made of clay. God will let me know in His timing what He has planned. While I wait I pray for grace and a deeper trust that His plans are better than my own. He is my provider and has provided all my needs. I should trust that I who have been adopted as His daughter by the blood of Christ through the Holy Spirit which cries Abba, Father. I used to believe the promises of sin, do this and you will be happy, commit this and you'll feel good. Yet it was a lie, the wages were death so why do I think at times the God can't be trusted. Yet He has provided a job for me, a place to live, friends who care, and most precious of all an eternity full of pure, innocent, undefiled joy. God may I trust You.