Not Right

I have been neglecting fellowship I decided to stay home. I have not been evangelizing at all and you know what I long for that. Why do I seek what is not of the Lord. God should be first and I should proclaim Him from the roof tops. We are filthy rotten creatures who do not deserve the mercy of God yet He was willing to die for us while we nailed Him to the cross with our crimes. We need Him don't think you don't. I don't ever want to turn away from Jesus.