Reflecting

It started off with a nightmare where someone was in a casket displayed in our backyard. And their was a wind blowing and the top opened to reveal a shrouded person the wind tore that to reveal the face of the dead person. Then they popped up and I awoke.
At work I have been given the opportunity to have extra hours that I may save for something special.
It has been a good day in that I was able to help a lot of people but its been very busy. The babies were as usual so wonderful. I love seeing the kids because now though I desire to have children the bittersweet feeling is gone.
Going to the women's book study made me feel vulnerable though. Made me realize how much I long to be right. How much bitterness is tucked away in my chest, how sick my heart has been due to my dream being deferred.
It is the season for me to be melancholy. It is the time my mom passed away. It is when my birthday comes and goes.