After a long time I could not keep silent

1)Do we love God?
If we love God it should be shown by a seeking after him in the ways he has provided.
>In the Bible
>In Prayer
>In Fellowship
>In Worship
>In Witnessing (evangelizing)
>In Works
>In Preaching (if called)
 
2)Do we love kids?
I have loved kids for a long time probably since I was allowed to hold my nephew.   For a long time I have wanted children. I have told some people that my aim was to be a stay at home wife and mother. This was mocked by a coworker but it is easy to forgive such a view when some are not able to view the implications of the call God has given some women. I sometimes am burdened and saddened by what the world has done to warp the few of motherhood of what it is to be a wife, and how submission to one's husband is profane.

3) Do we want to change?
God has in his mercy changed me. And may He continue to do so. I have been convicted due to God and him putting many circumstances in my life that God wants surrender and work but only the Holy Spirit would change me and that in the end my effort is of no consequence unless God is there. In the end if you don't really work to change your life you really don't want it to change.

What shall I do in light of what I have learned.
Seek to follow the bible.
Seek to honor Him in all things
Seek contentment in my life.
Do not seek my joy in circumstances but find the joy in God.
Love and rebuke.

I want to get married and have kids but I will not forsake God to gain it.