Bitterness/Contentment

I am going to speak plainly and honestly. I get upset sometimes that a believer who is a man may look at the outer appearance and not what is within. I used to have such a sense of entitlement that maybe if I reach a certain point God will have to give me what I want. I was wrong, God grants us the riches of His mercy each day. So Christ died to reconcile to Himself sinners who by their own merit only earn His wrath. He gives them His own righteousness. I need more of Jesus. Why are you downcast O my soul. Trust in God!