Innocence, Purity, Virginity, and Godliness

I can never get my mind innocent again after being addicted to pornography. It started with my aunt giving me a romance novel at eight years old. This went on until I was 22 almost 23. I was ashamed and rightly so and would constantly try to clean myself up and had never last and came back worse than ever. Yet God chose in his kindness and goodness to keep me from intimate relations with any man. Intimacy outside of God ordained marriage is wrong. In that it violates what God has set up when he created Adam first the Eve from his rib. My mind still haunts me with who I used to be and tells me I am no different, but I will answer in this way. Without Christ saving me and the Holy Spirit working to conform me into the image of Christ I would still be in the gutter. Yes my sins had stained me and I in my own power was not able to make myself clean. God has made me white as snow. By the Holy Spirit working to break me and push me towards repentance and by being in his word, praying, fasting, loving him more that any other with all my heart, mind, soul and strength. I cherish what I used to despise, I am a virgin. God is good.