Pain Grief

I had always thought I would be the one meant to be single and taking care of my mom as she grew older. Then when she died I fell. I thought knowing the word of God would kept me from going off the deep end but I did anyway. I'm not proud. I'm not glad. I'm fallible but even more than that I am so tired and alone. I've taken upon myself a weight a burden that is not mine to bear I'm a woman not a man. And truly what I want right now what I wish for is to relive this life to undo the calamity of these past few months. I'll be alone by June by then... by then...I don't know what I'll do.

Though your sins are scarlet He will wash them white as snow.

How could He forgive one such as I?