Honesty and Vulnerability

I love people, I know that is hard to imagine considering what an introvert I am and how exhausting I find people sometimes. I love some in an I want to take care of you kind of way, some I love in a tough love kind of way. I have been an enabler at times other times I have been very tough for the sake of wanting to see loved ones build better lives for themselves. I always have so much advice to give but I have learned the hard way to stop and listen and now I realize people need to see the need for change for themselves. Each day is a chance for God to change us more and more to the image of Jesus Christ. God meets each one of His children in the midst of all of life's circumstances. Whether they are drowning in sin, or have everything and find a dissatisfaction in it. I used to wonder about how some people who have so much can suddenly commit suicide and I realized something. You have the money, you have the cars, you can even be at the top of your career, but then once you achieve it what is there? Soul satisfaction is not achieved. In my life I had at times worked hard to achieve my so-called potential, been in gifted classes, on the dean's list but once I achieved them I am thinking now was it worth it. Only those things that were given away did I feel like it was worth the effort. It blessed others. The bible said its better to give than to receive. Now I just want to love well, to point people to Christ and not be drawn into victim mentalities, blame games, and excuses why specific people aren't doing what they ought. 

Writing and Living

I used to write a lot more. Pouring out small victories, my sorrows, difficulties, and happy moments. I went to sleep to early on Sunday and now it is 1 am on Monday the one good thing about today is that I shall be working from home this relieving me from getting up early to drive to work. New job, new duties, and in my hobby new breads to bake, foods to cook. Church has been wonderful and I have finally started talking to people again. I love the body and today I was encouraged once again to love those who are lost and do not know the Lord Jesus. Knowing that if I love them I will want to share Jesus with them. God is good. I am feeling tired now. I guess I may be able to get some sleep.

Life as I knew it

Marriage is definitely different than I thought it would be. I thought it would be living like a 50s housewife 24/7. Yet I did not factor in my job, my homemaking skills. I crochet, cook, bake, read. Marriage now in living it 8 months is serving and loving. Sometimes just being next to my sweet husband. Sometime calling him over to be my taste tester.

A Life Pleasing to the Lord

I want to be the kind of wife that is a help to her husband. I work full time but once I get off of work I realize that being a wife also has the responsibility to please her husband. So I find myself busy for hours after I get off.

I have a calling to care for my home, my husband. Change has come. I thought in my single days I was okay. I am encouraged to walk the narrow road that leads to life. Eight months of marriage. I have experienced so much this year and I am praying that God continue to work in me what is pleasing in His sight. 

One month in

So what can I say about marriage. Its a gift, it's sanctifying and it's a provision from God of a possibly lifelong companion. You get to know the person way more in marriage because of living life together. As a born again believer I hold to these beliefs, that a couple should not live together before marriage, that physical boundaries during the relationship helps cement a stronger union after marriage. 

God has been gracious to me and I am amazed at his provision for me.

A Single Rib getting Married

A long time ago well back in 2008 me and a couple of friends were part of a blog called the single rib society. It was for the single ladies you know. I haven't written there in so long but what can I say about it. Woman was created for man from man. God's purpose for the creation of woman was to make a helper suitable for Adam. I'm getting married. I have been through death, through a breakup, learning how to let people in and be able to share my life. God has brought me thus far and He will take me even further until the day that He calls me home. So soon I will be a Mrs. My last name will change, and I will be his as long as we both shall live. I'm looking forward to this next chapter in my life. I am very happy and very humbled by the gift that God has given me a godly Man who listens and loves me. He stopped on his way to pick me up in order to get me flowers. This love is not the world's idea of love but reflects more of God's love for me. To God be the glory, and my heart is ever filled with thankfulness.

Surprised

A woman my age from church let me borrow a book called Getting Serious About Getting Married. After reading just a small portion probably about 26 pages from that book I realized that I had been in a mindset and lifestyle that was the gearing up for lifelong celibacy, spinsterhood. Yet I have to say it was not me changing that made anything happen. What changed was God's timing to come to pass. About 9 days after posting my last post which was about me asking God to send a godly husband God did something amazing. I am thankful to God for all that he has brought me too that has led me to this place. May the will of God the Father be done.