If Wishes Were Horses

So as a Christian you are supposed to work as if working for the Lord. I work hard and I also seek to make our house a home. At times I wish I could cook for a side hustle. I like to make quiche, bake cakes, learn how to make cinnamon rolls and sell them so that I do not eat it. I am not a food influencer. I just want to use the gifts God gave me in order to make extra money. I am so glad my husband loves food. I am glad for the small items I have sold and hope to make more.  

Thoughts- December 21, 2025

For me it's easy to worry about people. Yet the Lord tells me to cast my cares on Him. So it's once again almost my birthday and how do I feel about it. I am trusting that the Lord will do work. That my desire for kids will not be an idol but that God will bring it about knowing that He is powerful. I think I have given so much time to things that are not edifying. I am thankful to God for what he has done. He has saved my soul. So as I walk and ponder his goodness. Thinking of the local church and hoping and praying for growth and the Lord sustaining hand. I am thankful for new opportunities, for the grace God has given me to enjoy being a traditional wife despite having to work. I love my husband and the life God has granted us. We have a house, clothes, and food and God has even given me the opportunity to bless others. I have known loss and plenty, I have known pain and well-being and like Paul says I have learned to be content. So as I sit here just waiting I thank God for his goodness, and His forgiveness knowing that though I deserve wrath He has given mercy.

Its the most wonderful time of the year

Christmas even as a kid has been bittersweet because I would sit and wonder is there more than presents and food. Since God has done a work in my life I have had little taste of what it could be. I want to celebrate every day Jesus, the Son of God, fully God and fully man.  This rejoicing is in different ways because as a Christian one meditates on God's word, prays without ceasing, and whether we eat or drink we do all to the glory of God. So each day devotions and praying and sometimes singing. Anyway so I would love to just fellowship and worship the Lord.

When I wrote romance- A Poem

With each scribble

Each stroke of the keyboard

I fell in love with each hero

Pieces of me in every heroine

When I felt loveless

The male leads would say I love you

Yet as I hunched over the computer

Lording over characters 

Determining their ends

Loneliness had set 

I had tried to gain love but felt worthless

Even while I played god

Over my written world

He showed me His love

Jesus loves not as man does

God does not look at the outer appearance 

But looks in the heart

He loved me while I was unlovable 

Now my eyes look towards that day

The culmination in heaven

A wedding feast as the Bride

Christ our Heavenly Bridegroom

What It Takes to Have a Good Marriage

Jesus. The Holy Spirit has to empower you to love sacrificially, to hold the person as higher than yourself. As a wife what God calls me to do is to respect my husband. He is called to love me as Christ loved the church, to wash me in the water of the Word. 

I am thankful for what God has provided. Its so sweet that God has graciously set us in a state where we love each other more each day. I look at him and think wow this man is so handsome. Anyway let me go back to the topic at hand I don't think we would be in this honeymoon state of mind if it wasn't for Christ at work in our lives. 

God help me to be a good wife to him. To be thankful at what you do in his life. To submit to his leadership. To trust him because he trusts you and to communicate with him.  

God consider our desire for children and do it so others will marvel at what you do. You who gave children to Sarah, to Rebecca, to Rachel, to Hannah, to Elizabeth will surely be able to do it in our life. 

May our marriage reflect Christ and the Church. Thank you God for my husband, for Your love, for sending Your Son to die for us despite us being undeserving. 

Discipline

2 Timothy 1:6-7 ESV

For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands, for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.

God has not given us over to our fallen nature but instead gave us new life.

I have been overweight most of my life. Yet God has reminded me that He gives the believer self-control. 

There is food that I miss like pizza, bread, Trader Joe's mini chicken tikka masala samosas... Yet God is faithful. So I am back at it. Committing myself to it while I can by God's grace have children. So far there has been sucess even though I had hit a plateau. But I know God will do more amazing things in my mind,.heart and soul. So in the meantime I boast in my weakness knowing that God will continue the work with. 

To be a Better Wife

There are certain things the Bible says about what it means for a man to have a bad wife. 

Proverbs 25:24 ESV

It is better to live in a corner of the housetop than in a house shared with a quarrelsome wife.

Proverbs 27:15 ESV

A continual dripping on a rainy day and a quarrelsome wife are alike;

I don't want to be that kind of wife. Yesterday I found myself impatient waiting on my husband. He was talking to someone at church and we were going to take a walk. I found myself getting more impatient the longer I waited. I am spoiled. So I talked to him about feeling impatient and I know its not something God wants me to be. I am very blessed by the relationship I have with my husband, he is my friend, my companion, and I hope by God's grace the father to our children. 

A lot of what this blog was for was to showcase what I have done to prepare for the proverbs 31 kind of woman. I have learned a lot, to cook, to sew, to sell items on the side yet in the end those things don't compare to the major attribute she must have to be a woman who fears the Lord.

I want to do my husband good all the days of his life, to respect him, to love him yet the reason why has to be because I love the Lord Jesus.

I can see now how much God has shown his love through my husband. When my phone was failing early on in our relationship he purchased me a phone. When I got back from Hawaii and I was sick with Covid my husband would visit me every night. He even purchased food for me when I wasn't feeling hungry. Even when he did not like my nose ring he didn't tell me to take it out. He was the first to say "I love you." He got me flowers just because. God is faithful. 

Love is a gift. God has shown His love for me that even though I have sinned Christ died for me. Not for me to remain the same butto be sanctified day by day.

I once read a book where the husband gave the wife a ring and it was inscribed with a saying I wonder if it was in French but it said "more than yesterday but less than tomorrow" talking about their love. I love my husband more now than I did when we were courting, then I did the day that we were married. 

There are times when we wonder why God had not had us meet sooner? I remind myself God's timing is perfect. 

Sorry for rambling on. I want to be a better wife to show love to my husband, to respect him, and what he does, to feed, and care for him, to encourage his faith and be the carer of our home.

I am thankful to God for all of the mercies He has provided.