At work

Today it was good. If felt pressing having to get things done right away. I guess looking upon my life I could wonder what is God doing. I am in North Minneapolis when I am not living here. I live in St. Paul and will be a bridesmaid. I spent a lot of my childhood wondering about being connected to others besides family. I have sisters and brothers that Lord willing I am able to spend time with them. I have been blessed life is good and I can't wait to see what God does no matter how many days I have been given.

Praise

I have been the last few weeks in a battle. I have struggled and know I grieved heavily the Spirit within. I have been bitter and used sin as a way to comfort myself but only caused more turmoil in my soul. God is my refuge but I had felt how could I go to Him again with my hands dirtied from handling mud. I tried to act as if everything was all right but it got to the point where I wanted everyone away. Yet when I was alone I did not turn to God. God confronted me Saturday and has been continuing to minister to me. His grace is sufficient His power perfected in weakness. I see His goodness, where I had been questioning it. I have laid everything out to God. May He give me the faith to believe that my life is better in His hands than mine.

Alto y bajo

Yesterday was a high and low. We went out witnessing. I love proclaiming Christ crucified, the full Gospel, our sinfulness, His righteousness, the judgement, the sentence taken by the Son of the judge himself, his perfect life, his nature fully God fully man, on the cross bearing our condemnation, his death, and ressurection. That for those who turned from their sin and trust solely on Christ and His work they shall be saved. This faith perseveres to the end. I love telling people the Gospel because it is the power of God. God graciously provided opportunities to do that yesterday.
Afterwards I was blessed with a ride home, but I had to hear about it... All I have to say its about a portion of Ephesians 5. I kept saying in my head why do I have to hear it and two words, until I got home then I cried where no one could hear or see except God.

This fleeting moment

From dust to to dust return

This life short streaming by

Childhood gone adulthood here

Then the twilight comes

 

What is the meaning?

What are we to do with this limited time?

 

We try to gain the temporal

Trying to be remembered

Yet most are forgotten

A name etched on a tombstone

 

Yet there is a way to gain

What will never be lost

A home that cannot be destroyed

A treasure no one can take

 

To use this life for His name's sake

To lay down a living sacrifice on the altar

To make Him known

To love Him, whom my soul was created for

 

Is heaven eternally

My God who sees me

The Lord hears and knows our frame knows we are just dust. For a long time I have coveted what I do not have and yet You see me and know me and sanctify me. I guess I am astounded that God answered my plea for something that was not needed. God is a God who sees and knows His children.

NASB)Genesis 16:13
Then she called the name of the LORD who spoke to her, "You are a God who sees";

Monday morning

I woke up at 6:10 am and worshipped the Lord. Today by the grace of God I pray the communion and hope and trust will grow. I am young according to some but at 28 and with now 8 gray hairs that have graced my head I know that there can be fools and wise at any stage in life. When I am in the word and seek to please God bad dreams filled with immorality play throughout the night and condemn me come morning. I pray for today God may You be magnified in my life. May I live in such a way that points to You. JESUS my saviour and God. You who bore my sins as a man cursed by hanging on the tree. Praise is due to You Lamb that was slain to purchase a people for Yourself. Give me peace in my circumstances may my desires be conformed to Your will. God lift my brothers to be godly men, in whatever roles they have, give them a zeal to glorify You. May my sisters be women with a quiet and gentle spirit submitting to the authorities placed in their lives. May Your word abide in us. May Your Spirit overflow within. Great are You Lord and Worthy to be Praised.

Evangelism and open air for women

I have been thinking long and hard about open air. I once upon a time proclaimed the Gospel by lifting my voice to proclaim the Gospel. I thought nothing of it. Later on I was told that it was for the men to do. I did not know what to think. I know that women must not teach men. Yet is open air preaching different? I am not because I am still on the fence but I do evangelize, one on one. May God give me boldness to share the Gospel of Jesus Christ.