Being Who God Wants Me To Be

I will begin with God. I think when one is informed only by parts of the Bible it's easy to look at God in two different categories. The first is of course the vengeful God who is Holy and will punish the guilty. It's easy to fear God in a way that doesn't have to do with awe but terror. People who happen informed in this way will see God as far off. The second view of God is the "buddy" God who is very human. He is all love and does in no way condemn sin. He is more a friend than a father. The truth of God is definitely more than we can fathom. Yet God can be known through his word. God is a Holy and Righteous, He is Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace, of His Kingdom there shall be no end. He is Holy, high and lifted up, set apart. He will judge yet He provides pardon through His Son taking on the punishment we deserve. Yet when He does this He does not let us live in sin loving ways instead, gives us repentance. God clearly states who He is in His word.

Now about who I am supposed to be. I fall short a lot. I want to be a Proverbs 31 woman, but I am not there yet. I want to be a good wife, supporting my husband, loving him. I want to encourage my family but not fall under my old ways of enabling them. My life is way different than before God brought my husband into my life and my life is all the better for it. Most of all I want to be a woman who fears the Lord.