Already February

I have been going through a trial and I realize my body can't take any sugar. When I was growing up we grew up on highly processed food and even though now I eat homemade foods from scratch any starch has been affecting me from... one of my desires. God is faithful and has been helping me. In this time I am thankful God put a song in my heart. I am still working on losing weight and have had a lot of slow but sure progress. So I have to be sugar free I wish I could find the reason why but for now I will keep praying and thanking God. God please continue to hear me when I call. Thank You for my husband and this place You have us. We trust in You not in man. 

The Little Things

All of the little things add up to the bigger picture of a relationship. Today even though my husband was far away he sent me some messages that will warm even the coldest of hearts. I am thankful to God for that. I think when you find someone who loves deeply and shows it in practical ways that is a blessing. Life is sweet and God has provided so much. God has redeemed my life from the pit and even when I wasn't listening to him He still brought me close. Work has been steady and I am so glad to have more peace. I wonder at times why God has led me so far to get to this point now and I see that without the trials, without the sorrows, without the folly that I have committed, I wouldn't be so filled with gratitude now. Darkness comes before the morning and God has made beauty from ashes. 

Romance After Marriage is not dead

My husband is very romantic and I am like a girl who still squeals at her crush. The other day hubby saw it was my break time since I work from home. He came to my office chair set up in the kitchen and swept me up into his arms and carried me the other room where we have his office and spare bed. I am chunky and when he picks me up or just carries me I realize that romance should not be done with after marriage. Love should be cultivated and is an action. These 4 years are a blessing and I thank God.

If Wishes Were Horses

So as a Christian you are supposed to work as if working for the Lord. I work hard and I also seek to make our house a home. At times I wish I could cook for a side hustle. I like to make quiche, bake cakes, learn how to make cinnamon rolls and sell them so that I do not eat it. I am not a food influencer. I just want to use the gifts God gave me in order to make extra money. I am so glad my husband loves food. I am glad for the small items I have sold and hope to make more.  

Thoughts- December 21, 2025

For me it's easy to worry about people. Yet the Lord tells me to cast my cares on Him. So it's once again almost my birthday and how do I feel about it. I am trusting that the Lord will do work. That my desire for kids will not be an idol but that God will bring it about knowing that He is powerful. I think I have given so much time to things that are not edifying. I am thankful to God for what he has done. He has saved my soul. So as I walk and ponder his goodness. Thinking of the local church and hoping and praying for growth and the Lord sustaining hand. I am thankful for new opportunities, for the grace God has given me to enjoy being a traditional wife despite having to work. I love my husband and the life God has granted us. We have a house, clothes, and food and God has even given me the opportunity to bless others. I have known loss and plenty, I have known pain and well-being and like Paul says I have learned to be content. So as I sit here just waiting I thank God for his goodness, and His forgiveness knowing that though I deserve wrath He has given mercy.

Its the most wonderful time of the year

Christmas even as a kid has been bittersweet because I would sit and wonder is there more than presents and food. Since God has done a work in my life I have had little taste of what it could be. I want to celebrate every day Jesus, the Son of God, fully God and fully man.  This rejoicing is in different ways because as a Christian one meditates on God's word, prays without ceasing, and whether we eat or drink we do all to the glory of God. So each day devotions and praying and sometimes singing. Anyway so I would love to just fellowship and worship the Lord.

When I wrote romance- A Poem

With each scribble

Each stroke of the keyboard

I fell in love with each hero

Pieces of me in every heroine

When I felt loveless

The male leads would say I love you

Yet as I hunched over the computer

Lording over characters 

Determining their ends

Loneliness had set 

I had tried to gain love but felt worthless

Even while I played god

Over my written world

He showed me His love

Jesus loves not as man does

God does not look at the outer appearance 

But looks in the heart

He loved me while I was unlovable 

Now my eyes look towards that day

The culmination in heaven

A wedding feast as the Bride

Christ our Heavenly Bridegroom