Faithful even when we are faithless

I myself am suffering no hardship. Yet my mom has cancer and she is growing very weak. I know that God calls good and bad into being that He may reveal himself in our weakest moments. To work moments when we are downtrodden into ones where he carries us and molds us into the likeness of His Son Jesus Christ. Those times when we are tested when we depend solely upon him for our needs.

It says in Isaiah 41:10

Fear not for I am with you. Be not dismayed for I am your God. I will sustain you. I will help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

When moments like these arise what is said about scripture memorization is true. When you keep the word of God within you, remembering it. Whenever a situation arises a verse comes in your mind, reminding me of the sovereignty of God.

He is my foundation which cannot be moved. I entrust myself into his care.

To God be the Glory for he strengthens the weak.

Faithful Witness

I pray that God allows me to be a faithful witness to Him. My life marred with so many failings that He will continue to change me as time goes on. Lord I don't care for a mansion or a car. I worry about persecution that is true. I had a waking nightmare where I saw my own face covered in blood. How fearful is such a thing. I come to God in ragged dress knowing that it does not conceal the sin beneath. He knows what is there yet he clothes me with righteousness how can I not follow my Lord after that. Why I had spent my life running from him I do not know? I am young still and I am pressed I don't know what is to become of me but I will follow my God Jesus Christ. How many nights have I wasted? How many mornings desperately wishing I could remain in dreams where sin in indulged and said to bring happiness? I awoke with a gleam in my eye that had everything to do with perversion and deep weariness. Will I return to that vomit. Not with the help of God. Jesus help me.

New Year: A Quarter Century Old

I am a 25 year-old Christian woman/girl. I still look like a teenager. I am putting away all the things of childhood to become an adult. Does that mean I don't have fun? No its just that I delight in the simple things. I want for this year to evangelize more. I hope to find another group soon. Anyway may this year be one of growing in the ways of Jesus Christ our God. By the word lets learn and let God guide our steps.

Giving a Desire to God

I need to grow up and it is about time. I have struggled so long but I realize that I have put much time into worrying about it. For long I have spoken about how courtship should go and that people must go about it in a way that would glorify God. I will wait for God's timing on it. I am not going to get my name out there or worry about what the future will bring.  Its a constant thing and reminder. My life is not how I have lined it up. I will live my life in a way that will honor God by relying solely upon him. God has helped me out so much. I will seek God and let him guide my steps. I won't worry about tomorrow for todays troubles are enough for today.

Preparation

I am about to turn 25 in 13 days. In general I do not ask for anything. I just want a peaceful quiet time with family but in general it never works out in such a manner. So my sincerest want is that I am not putting  the things of this world first. I have had a bad habit of putting my eyes onto things that I will not take with me when I leave this world. So what should I ask for. That Christ might be glorified that instead of thinking about Jack Frost, Frosty the Snowman, Santa Claus, and Rudolf the Red-nosed Reindeer people might see that it is about the Son of God, Jesus Christ born in Bethlehem who died for the sin of the World. It is not about the presents it is about Christ. 

Living to Glorify God

I live with family and I am not going to say anything about their walk. I realize that I am in another stage. I have been down. I have surrendered to him. I have other things I must surrender. I have so much sorrow when it comes to others but God has been good to me and continues to be good. God is in control and I will pray that he will work in the people I know. 

See in Me

I see so many things rolling inside me. My flesh is doing battle with the Spirit of God who is growing me in holiness. The things I want to do I cannot do. 

I am angry at my older sister and I am wrong. She rejects God and it makes me angry. I cannot see how anyone can refuse so great a salvation. I give her over to the hands of God I can do nothing. I can't push people into growing in holiness. How much can I say. I stumble, I am a sinner. I need my savior each day. I don't ever want to be complacent about reading the bible, about gathering with other believers. About evangelizing. I want to proclaim our state before God and Christ Crucified. I deserve Hell but The only Savior paid the penalty for my sin. I am wicked yet He drank the cup of God's wrath draining it. In three hours Christ suffered more than any sinner would in hell. Do you think really God standards his justice is so weak. He slew his own Son because he hated sin so much. Sin requires punishment we are wretched evil vile corrupted worms .