Passing Time

 It is very strange to think how fast time is passing. I got married almost a year ago. I have had the privilege to see my youngest brother get baptized. I just also realize how fragile life is. I have had a few health concerns but I trust that my God will only provide the days He as appointed to me. He has blessed me a lot. I want to treasure each day but not cling to closely to life and some longings that I have. God has brought me a loving spouse, family, and more greater than all that salvation. I have some prayer that God has not answered yet but I know that He can, that when the time comes my God will be with me.

Faith Demands More

Today I am pondering. Thinking about the Christian Life and it's progression. I think it is very easy to just point out errors in the beginning of someone's Christian Life. It is a fine line between judging things according to God's law and being ungracious. 

That scripture is very clear but a person who is born again does not suddenly have right theology but the foundation should be there, repentance and faith. 

I was watching how the Lord has been softening someone's heart and I've also seen how people who have come to know Jesus even though they need to be taken aside like Apollos and taught right theology but it should be a cause for rejoicing that God will make himself known to another person who did not deserve his grace. 

The Christian walk has to be categorized by a renewed life, filthy speech will leave, impure thoughts will be a cause of grief and shame, and a love and knowledge of the Lord Jesus Christ will cause them Joy. 

So here I am just thinking about salvation, about sanctification, about having grace for new brothers and sisters, yet also the need for discipleship. How will we grow in the Christian faith unless we are taught.

Honesty and Vulnerability

I love people, I know that is hard to imagine considering what an introvert I am and how exhausting I find people sometimes. I love some in an I want to take care of you kind of way, some I love in a tough love kind of way. I have been an enabler at times other times I have been very tough for the sake of wanting to see loved ones build better lives for themselves. I always have so much advice to give but I have learned the hard way to stop and listen and now I realize people need to see the need for change for themselves. Each day is a chance for God to change us more and more to the image of Jesus Christ. God meets each one of His children in the midst of all of life's circumstances. Whether they are drowning in sin, or have everything and find a dissatisfaction in it. I used to wonder about how some people who have so much can suddenly commit suicide and I realized something. You have the money, you have the cars, you can even be at the top of your career, but then once you achieve it what is there? Soul satisfaction is not achieved. In my life I had at times worked hard to achieve my so-called potential, been in gifted classes, on the dean's list but once I achieved them I am thinking now was it worth it. Only those things that were given away did I feel like it was worth the effort. It blessed others. The bible said its better to give than to receive. Now I just want to love well, to point people to Christ and not be drawn into victim mentalities, blame games, and excuses why specific people aren't doing what they ought. 

Writing and Living

I used to write a lot more. Pouring out small victories, my sorrows, difficulties, and happy moments. I went to sleep to early on Sunday and now it is 1 am on Monday the one good thing about today is that I shall be working from home this relieving me from getting up early to drive to work. New job, new duties, and in my hobby new breads to bake, foods to cook. Church has been wonderful and I have finally started talking to people again. I love the body and today I was encouraged once again to love those who are lost and do not know the Lord Jesus. Knowing that if I love them I will want to share Jesus with them. God is good. I am feeling tired now. I guess I may be able to get some sleep.

Life as I knew it

Marriage is definitely different than I thought it would be. I thought it would be living like a 50s housewife 24/7. Yet I did not factor in my job, my homemaking skills. I crochet, cook, bake, read. Marriage now in living it 8 months is serving and loving. Sometimes just being next to my sweet husband. Sometime calling him over to be my taste tester.

A Life Pleasing to the Lord

I want to be the kind of wife that is a help to her husband. I work full time but once I get off of work I realize that being a wife also has the responsibility to please her husband. So I find myself busy for hours after I get off.

I have a calling to care for my home, my husband. Change has come. I thought in my single days I was okay. I am encouraged to walk the narrow road that leads to life. Eight months of marriage. I have experienced so much this year and I am praying that God continue to work in me what is pleasing in His sight. 

One month in

So what can I say about marriage. Its a gift, it's sanctifying and it's a provision from God of a possibly lifelong companion. You get to know the person way more in marriage because of living life together. As a born again believer I hold to these beliefs, that a couple should not live together before marriage, that physical boundaries during the relationship helps cement a stronger union after marriage. 

God has been gracious to me and I am amazed at his provision for me.