Gratitude

I am thankful for the past because of where I am now. I am thankful to God for a husband who tells lots of jokes, writes me love notes at times, and gets me flowers on occasion just because. 3 years ago I thought I would remain single not knowing that God had orchestrated a meeting between me and my husband. He encourages me to be a better woman. I have grown. I remember him walking around as I talked to a sweet sister and friend Lee. I remember us recounting failed relationships. We talked about our faith in Christ. Janette Iks I Will Wait where she describes the man she waits for that he has the wisdom of Solomon leads like Moses, has God's word tatted all over your heart and your love reminds me of Christ. I treasured that poem and found that man in my husband. So I am thankful for past relationships and experiences that led me to what Christ had for me. 

A New Place to Worship

It has been more than 8 months since we first attended this church. God has been faithful in smoothing fears, granting us a place to hear His word. It is different than I'm used to. We seek to hold fast to God's word. We joined officially mid July separating us fully from my previous church. I do love and miss the people at our previous church. I trust that God will hold fast to His people. I was fearful since July 2023 to entrust ourselves to leadership. What was in the back of my mind was what if we are verbally maligned, what if we are called out from the pulpit. If it could happen in one church could not others do that. Until God returns sin will always be a problem in the church and the only remedy is humilty and repentance, a greater love for God and others and a boldness to do what is right in the face of opposition. I will pray for God's church, its head Christ not man.

Not Yet

I am not a Proverbs 31 woman not yet maybe not fully ever. I want to do good to my husband all the days of my life. This was a conviction a few years before I met my husband. I am very blessed that I am married to him. I find myself nagging ugh I hate that. My husband takes it all in stride.  I want to be more patient and I find that God is granting me the opportunity to do so. I have a desire for children to teach according to God's ways yet I have a condition called PCOS its makes it easy to accumulate weight and makes it more harber to keep off but not only that it makes it even harder to conceive. So I wait and pray.

Having Christ

The end of any good works is to honor and glorify God. Good works can be even cleaning the toilet at church, at home, changing diapers, taking care of the ill and not sounding any trumpets. The Christian life is about private time where no one sees but God, then the Lord being reflected in how you treat others. Meet with Christ personally, love the brethren, count others higher than self. Ministry is nothing if God is not in it.

Fellowship

Tonight was sweet and God has been so kind. This week has been wracked with stress and worries culminated in a time together with believers that was a sweet balm to my weary soul.

Maybe I should be more concise and instead of trying to use similes and metaphors just share my heart on a lot of matters. For me I dislike shallow conversations so when I can I seek to love and listen to others share their heart and struggles. I like to help, I love to share the gospel, I want my life to be lived to glorify Jesus, who loved me and saved me from the punishment I deserve. 

It was fun to spend time with friends and to talk about the Lord. I am thankful for how much God has been working in our lives even when we don't see it. 

Joy in the Lord and work in marriage

When one holds fast to God it is easy to see that marriage is not to be all and all. I love marriage and the picture that it is supposed to be. I had asked for it from time to time before I got married wanting it so much that it had been an idol. I sinned grievously against the Lord during that time. My husband was different our relationship began with us talking about the Lord. I was scared in the first days of us knowing one another. Could he see how broken I had become because of my own sin. I had sought intimacy as a substitute for marriage in the past. Even though I was still struggling God had mercy on me. I was finally praying for what I longed for in my heart. Our marriage is not perfect I show so much selfishness at times. Hubby has at times his own sin struggles. We show patience and grace to one another. We push ourselves to love more, bear with one another more. We pray together, read the word together and seperately. We want the Lord to work in our lives. We have been taught by God to be this way towards one another. This has brought about an almost extended honeymoon stage not because we are perfect but because God has taught us to love. 

If Christ is the foundation of a union He must continue to be. 

Abba, you have been a Father to the fatherless. You have kept me from so much harm. Thank You for Your steadfast love and mercy. I ask that You will conform us more to Your image. That Your word work in our hearts and lives. May our marriage reflect the relationship between Christ and His bride the Church. You know our desires Lord please bring them about Lord.You are the Living God and I praise Your Holy Name. In the Name of Jesus, Amén.

Loving the church

It is hard to find a church, yet the church is necessary in the lives of believers. The fellowship of the saints is how we are encouraged, by gathering together, hearing scripture, worshipping the Lord together, and also receiving teaching. I love the church, the body of Christ. 

I have been really blessed in my husband that his leadership has helped my faith to grow. I have been reading God's word, worshipping, in prayer. I know that I could have taken the loss of sweet dear people in my  

life badly, yet I realized this scripture is true, "...if we are faithless, he remains faithful- for he cannot deny himself."

So what is my life like, well work is better more manageable. I want to do more crafts but that is just in my to do when I happen to have time. I spend time with friends. I still dance on occasion at home. I cook for my hubby. He is the main beneficiary of the food I make. I still go to church, i still enjoy the fellowship of the saints. I still love God's people. I seek that my eyes be focused of Christ, I seek to know the LORD (YHWH) more. I have not arrived in my faith seeing as there is more sin to kill within me. A way to grow in faith. The Lord is good, and I seek to glorify God with my life.