Conversations

I have been blessed with the opportunity for two conversations. One was about a passion for the Lord, talking to a seminary student about having deep abiding affection for the God whom he serves. I asked about prayer and not allowing the word of God, the bible, to become solely a textbook, but that it may fuel his knowledge and praise of God. Then today I talked about the fear of God with God providing much scripture. God is so good. It is well with my soul.

Unrighteous

I need Christ yesterday I was battling against memories of my former sin. I felt alone and yet I know God was there. I rejoice in my time with God. Yesterday I saw a lack of reverence a lightness that sickened me. I was then bumbarded with my previous sins and was tempted to look at porn. Oh Lord I hated those thoughts and by the grace of God fled temptation. I cried out to God and He helped me. He gave me victory. Praise the Lord Jesus Christ.

A bridesmaid

Maybe what John said plays a lot into yesterday. I was a brdesmaid yesterday and I rejoiced knowing my friend was marrying t man she loved it was about the bride and the groom had we the friends and family were invited to rejoice with them. There was worship and I love to worship the complaints I had made during rehearsal did not cross my lips during the event. It is about Christ about repentance and faith on Him. I rejoiced, I laughed, I did not cry. At the end of the evening I was drained. I pray the God will guard you and keep you. Reflect Christ and the church thoughout your marriage. May it not be about you guys but about God. Bless you guys Matthew and Olabisi Sheppard.

What I need

God is far more than we think. He can do more that we think or imagine. Our relationship with Him should be more than what we have now. He is Father, friend, brother, and closer than a lover. I have been wallowing in self-pity and doubt. I have not believed in His goodness.
I have tried to keep people out. To not have them see my utter brokenness, my sin which clings close. What do I ask God when I pray? Do I pray for temporal things or eternal things?

I have been getting closer to my brothers and sister and they have found out one how God s working in me, also that as always I have a ways to go. I have been sleeping at the drop of a dime and have been tired. Crying out to God is the only thing that works.

Prayer and bible reading have been very central and I realize that I am one of those, wanting Christ to make much of. I don't care about my name being known, I don't care about being recognized. I just want people to be able to see that any victory over sin, over temptation is all a matter of God working supernaturally.

Jesus has overcome. He is Risen!!!

At work

Today it was good. If felt pressing having to get things done right away. I guess looking upon my life I could wonder what is God doing. I am in North Minneapolis when I am not living here. I live in St. Paul and will be a bridesmaid. I spent a lot of my childhood wondering about being connected to others besides family. I have sisters and brothers that Lord willing I am able to spend time with them. I have been blessed life is good and I can't wait to see what God does no matter how many days I have been given.

Praise

I have been the last few weeks in a battle. I have struggled and know I grieved heavily the Spirit within. I have been bitter and used sin as a way to comfort myself but only caused more turmoil in my soul. God is my refuge but I had felt how could I go to Him again with my hands dirtied from handling mud. I tried to act as if everything was all right but it got to the point where I wanted everyone away. Yet when I was alone I did not turn to God. God confronted me Saturday and has been continuing to minister to me. His grace is sufficient His power perfected in weakness. I see His goodness, where I had been questioning it. I have laid everything out to God. May He give me the faith to believe that my life is better in His hands than mine.

Alto y bajo

Yesterday was a high and low. We went out witnessing. I love proclaiming Christ crucified, the full Gospel, our sinfulness, His righteousness, the judgement, the sentence taken by the Son of the judge himself, his perfect life, his nature fully God fully man, on the cross bearing our condemnation, his death, and ressurection. That for those who turned from their sin and trust solely on Christ and His work they shall be saved. This faith perseveres to the end. I love telling people the Gospel because it is the power of God. God graciously provided opportunities to do that yesterday.
Afterwards I was blessed with a ride home, but I had to hear about it... All I have to say its about a portion of Ephesians 5. I kept saying in my head why do I have to hear it and two words, until I got home then I cried where no one could hear or see except God.