Tuesday, April 1, 2025

The Difference between Past and Present

When I was younger I would have a wanderlust and would seek to go far away. God has been merciful to allow me different opportunities to go to different countries. Now with my husband I have a partner to travel the world with. In my single days it was different I could put the time in I would do what I want Hawaii was a picture of this I hiked so much went to beaches, saw waterfulls, went to the Dole Plantation. I had just met my now husband 2 weeks before and he video called me a lot on my trip. With my husband we have gone on a lot of trips, to Arizona, Canada, Texas, Florida, Alabama, Louisiana, Missouri, and we have future trips in the works. We do pray for children. I hope we do. I am also seeking to live and eat more healthy. We prioritize our time with the Lord.  God knew what he was doing. I am content with my life even with trials and tribulations. Marriage is such a blessing. As I am here almost 2 in the morning thinking about the differences between my life when I was single and my life now I thank God for the gifts He has provided. 

Friday, March 28, 2025

Night Prayer

My dear Abba, there is so much to talk to You about. I am filled with gratitude for the work You have done in my life. To have victory over pornography. To give a godly husband despite my foolishness of not listening to counsel before. Thank You for my family and I pray that You will save those who have not been born again. Thank You for the examples of godly womanhood in my life. God You know how much I love missions and though You have called me to be where I am I ask that You empower those on the field. That they not be discouraged but that by the power of the Holy Spirit You will help them be bold in their witness, gracious to their enemies abounding in love and good works to both the lost and other believers. God for those who are suffering for Your Name's sake I pray that they know You are with them. Reveal to them Your lovingkindness. You are a Father who cares. I know that I bring this up from time to time but I know that You are the only one who can bring reconciliation at Oakridge and Providence. You know the extent of everyone's actions. God help me to love better. There are so many people to pray for, so my things I know only You can do. The healing of the sick, true revival instead of dead orthodoxy. I cry out to You because You spoke the world into existence, You told me while dead in my sin to live. God I hate this job but love the people and I honestly feel the weaker I get day by day though I seek to work hard. I go to sleep but wake up so so tired. Then the bleeding. Oh God please help, please heal me. You are the only one I can go to, only You have the words of eternal life. God You know our desire for children Lord. You alone knit children in the womb weaving together DNA. How marvelous are Your works among the children of man. God I praise Your Holy Name. In Your Name Lord Jesus, Amén.