Conversations

I have been blessed with the opportunity for two conversations. One was about a passion for the Lord, talking to a seminary student about having deep abiding affection for the God whom he serves. I asked about prayer and not allowing the word of God, the bible, to become solely a textbook, but that it may fuel his knowledge and praise of God. Then today I talked about the fear of God with God providing much scripture. God is so good. It is well with my soul.

Unrighteous

I need Christ yesterday I was battling against memories of my former sin. I felt alone and yet I know God was there. I rejoice in my time with God. Yesterday I saw a lack of reverence a lightness that sickened me. I was then bumbarded with my previous sins and was tempted to look at porn. Oh Lord I hated those thoughts and by the grace of God fled temptation. I cried out to God and He helped me. He gave me victory. Praise the Lord Jesus Christ.

A bridesmaid

Maybe what John said plays a lot into yesterday. I was a brdesmaid yesterday and I rejoiced knowing my friend was marrying t man she loved it was about the bride and the groom had we the friends and family were invited to rejoice with them. There was worship and I love to worship the complaints I had made during rehearsal did not cross my lips during the event. It is about Christ about repentance and faith on Him. I rejoiced, I laughed, I did not cry. At the end of the evening I was drained. I pray the God will guard you and keep you. Reflect Christ and the church thoughout your marriage. May it not be about you guys but about God. Bless you guys Matthew and Olabisi Sheppard.

What I need

God is far more than we think. He can do more that we think or imagine. Our relationship with Him should be more than what we have now. He is Father, friend, brother, and closer than a lover. I have been wallowing in self-pity and doubt. I have not believed in His goodness.
I have tried to keep people out. To not have them see my utter brokenness, my sin which clings close. What do I ask God when I pray? Do I pray for temporal things or eternal things?

I have been getting closer to my brothers and sister and they have found out one how God s working in me, also that as always I have a ways to go. I have been sleeping at the drop of a dime and have been tired. Crying out to God is the only thing that works.

Prayer and bible reading have been very central and I realize that I am one of those, wanting Christ to make much of. I don't care about my name being known, I don't care about being recognized. I just want people to be able to see that any victory over sin, over temptation is all a matter of God working supernaturally.

Jesus has overcome. He is Risen!!!