Come away

Come let us go...

 

Where it is just you and I

You teach me and I learn

You show me tender care and I bloom

 

Come let the things you clasp so tightly go...

 

Why do I seem to be unable to open my hand and let you see

This picture in my hand born of Genesis 2

I am so afraid to let it go

 

Come beloved come...

 

by the hand you lead me

Showing me the mighty deeds you have done

You are worthy of trust

 

Why are you so afraid to be alone with me...

 

Because I am afraid to give you what I have hidden deep within my heart 

Not an excuse

Well I have been struggling and I cannot use hormones or emoions as an excuse to sin. Yes I am in a specific state in my life. Yet I cannot change it and I don't pray to God about it. I am tired of talking about it. I am tired of evil using that point to have me question the goodness of God. When I am alone I am afraid to give this over to God. I try to avoid praying to talk to God. He knows, He knows my frame He knows I am desk.

Trusting God in Loneliness

2011 has been a year of weddings and births. Many people I know have moved from one stage in their life to another. I sometimes feel left behind no not in a rapture sort of way, but as in they moved forward and I am still where they left me. Its amazing what I can pour out when I am being honest and the best thing about it is that people that I see in my day to day life are less likely to see. Anyway I know I am not the only one to feel the sorrow of not having a person who intimately knows you. Who knows what makes you happy, what makes you cry, the moments you walk through nature paths talking to God, the moments I hide, the moments I want a hug after I do dishes, how much I miss the closeness of another person (yet in a way that honors God). God knows, God knows me that well, its not the sad part. No one knows me that well. I have to by the grace of God that is sufficient for each day, lay down my life as a living sacrifice, have faith in God to supply all my needs, rest in the knowledge that I have a God, the One True God that is nearby. Loneliness is hard, has its own sadness. Yet I fight for a joy in my salvation, in the end its God who satisfies my soul.

God Working whatever stage

God can and will sanctify those who belong to Him. It has been a hard year of sin being exposed in my life and opening up. My prayer is that God show me how to be responsible for His money. To give me joy and contentment in all circumstances. As I am riding on the bus I am thinking and praying and hoping, knowing that God works all the time. His love does not wane and seeks His own glory. May God make me holy, and humbled, and steadfast. May He open my mouth to proclaim His excellencies.