The Battle for Holiness

It is so early but I felt the need to write. In the Christian life there is a fight to put to death the old man (our previous sins that ensnare us) along with its desires. The battle we wage is using Spiritual means though bodily disciple does help as well. My besetting sin the one that I struggled for many years is written porn. Right bow its not even a desire but with apps like Kindle it brings up what I in the past would have been like yes I have to read that to know what happens next in the series. Yet talking about it is that light of day after reading my bible I see where the battle is waged. It is in bible reading, its in prayers, its in serting my mind in the things above. We battle with sin each day whether its cussing, coarse jesting, lying, sexual sin, anger, worry, unforgiveness, covering, and more. We have to put to death the deeds of the flesh. Kill that old man sin, and live by the Spirit. 

Thoughts in the Middle of the night

I had slept early and now I am awake. I can hear my hubby and though I want to expend my energy I want to go back to sleep. Wanting to be a godly wife is a big desire of mine. The bible says she does him good not harm all the days of her life. I cook, clean, decorate at times. We have adventures together. I have enjoyed marriage so much. I love my hubby very much he is a gift from the Lord to me.

Gratitude

I am thankful for the past because of where I am now. I am thankful to God for a husband who tells lots of jokes, writes me love notes at times, and gets me flowers on occasion just because. 3 years ago I thought I would remain single not knowing that God had orchestrated a meeting between me and my husband. He encourages me to be a better woman. I have grown. I remember him walking around as I talked to a sweet sister and friend Lee. I remember us recounting failed relationships. We talked about our faith in Christ. Janette Iks I Will Wait where she describes the man she waits for that he has the wisdom of Solomon leads like Moses, has God's word tatted all over your heart and your love reminds me of Christ. I treasured that poem and found that man in my husband. So I am thankful for past relationships and experiences that led me to what Christ had for me. 

A New Place to Worship

It has been more than 8 months since we first attended this church. God has been faithful in smoothing fears, granting us a place to hear His word. It is different than I'm used to. We seek to hold fast to God's word. We joined officially mid July separating us fully from my previous church. I do love and miss the people at our previous church. I trust that God will hold fast to His people. I was fearful since July 2023 to entrust ourselves to leadership. What was in the back of my mind was what if we are verbally maligned, what if we are called out from the pulpit. If it could happen in one church could not others do that. Until God returns sin will always be a problem in the church and the only remedy is humilty and repentance, a greater love for God and others and a boldness to do what is right in the face of opposition. I will pray for God's church, its head Christ not man.

Not Yet

I am not a Proverbs 31 woman not yet maybe not fully ever. I want to do good to my husband all the days of my life. This was a conviction a few years before I met my husband. I am very blessed that I am married to him. I find myself nagging ugh I hate that. My husband takes it all in stride.  I want to be more patient and I find that God is granting me the opportunity to do so. I have a desire for children to teach according to God's ways yet I have a condition called PCOS its makes it easy to accumulate weight and makes it more harber to keep off but not only that it makes it even harder to conceive. So I wait and pray.

Having Christ

The end of any good works is to honor and glorify God. Good works can be even cleaning the toilet at church, at home, changing diapers, taking care of the ill and not sounding any trumpets. The Christian life is about private time where no one sees but God, then the Lord being reflected in how you treat others. Meet with Christ personally, love the brethren, count others higher than self. Ministry is nothing if God is not in it.

Fellowship

Tonight was sweet and God has been so kind. This week has been wracked with stress and worries culminated in a time together with believers that was a sweet balm to my weary soul.

Maybe I should be more concise and instead of trying to use similes and metaphors just share my heart on a lot of matters. For me I dislike shallow conversations so when I can I seek to love and listen to others share their heart and struggles. I like to help, I love to share the gospel, I want my life to be lived to glorify Jesus, who loved me and saved me from the punishment I deserve. 

It was fun to spend time with friends and to talk about the Lord. I am thankful for how much God has been working in our lives even when we don't see it.